O My Freaking Gawd!!!!!!!!! two freakingly unbelievable things tht i need to say.

1st) what is this!?! 4 pimples on my chin upon waking up?!?!....ARG!!!!!!!!!!! i think i would have tons of scars and maybe 20 more pimples till this friday then...good bye smoothness..O.O sobs*

2nd) tht freakingly crazy scary guy who was shorter than me tht likes to hug me from the back when i was in primary 6..who he was the leader of his pathetic gang who spits on the staircase and then calls out loud 'hey, beautiful' and then when i was at the corridor, he leans on the window pannel to stare at me...well not only him, he and his gang...he..this guy...this shortie after 9 years has grown sooooo much taller...and but then he still looks the same...i wont grade on his looks here...but yeah...i cant believe a friend of mine found him and asked me to contact him agn...

sigh..all because of the sickness janice gave me, now i colour coordinate my smarties too..O.O

yay!!! my clinical is officially over! i cant believe lou hugged me...i was like 'errr, jeez thanks' she was a totally diff person yesterday and all those mean things she has said was just all an act..WTF?!!? after all tht hurtfull meaningless shit she gave me and the girls was all just an act...she was indeed what bianca(the nice RN) told me, tht lou is a very nice person. pfft..what a discusting fruit she is to do tht. <---fruit...bwhahaha...i got tht from stewie..

Surprises; ahh…how I love u….especially those happy an unexpected one trills me to my freaking bone. I’m glowing like a bubble full of sparkles. I thank the boy, a 26 year old. The one that have made me so happy, I’ve been smiling since 12pm just now.

oo…my acne is growing me like a disease. So freaking sien I feel like I cant face windson face to face anymore..cause of the acne..

btw, the cute and lovable vietnames patient.(not my patient) but someone I love taking care of ,as I’m very kepo one, like to take care of other ppl’s patient..haha…and yeah..i'm always by her side her, and then playing with her…but then sadly, I was told by the doctor that her heart beat is declining.which means she has only a few hours till tomolo to live. I was almost in tears( but then she is not my family member, so its just so awkward to wanna cry my eyes out for someone I’ve known for only 3 weeks)…she will forever be in my memory as I love how she sang to me..

i was very impressed, when i sang total eclipse of the heart, boy finished my sentence for me.i'm currently dwlding songs from the 80'ties as it reminds me bk those days when dad would bring me kai kai and would play some of mum's fav songs.

Law!!! i hate law...i hate studying for it..

omg..i cant believe megan made me called Dr lee..i think he's a malaysian or singaporean...cause when we conversate, i can hear the slang..eii..he's soooo cute lar...like a sekia..

latest with my newly cut fringe by non other than mua.. tonight's dinner was awesome. had it at ming's steamboat agn..bumped into Doctor ken..haha...

YAY!!! i'm officially free of assignments, presentation and quizzes.. :D :D

oo..oooo..anna...i got the coat u and mamma got for me..thanks ya..

i get to see the gurls tonight!! yay!!! even if its only 20 mins, i wont miss the opportunity to catch up...phew, thank goodness the presentation is over...now, i would need to study the whole sociology book and finish the online quiz before friday. spammed joyce's screen last night...as she wanted the emoticons...btw, hunnie, i miss u and i knw u miss me too..:D:D

last night, i had a heart to heart conversation with denise...she talking bout alex, me with someone (who doesnt even know tht i kinda have feelings for him)..yah,i know..its silly

being in love/ liking someone is si beh susah and at the same time tiring...

i give up on trying to like him..as i'm only exhausting myself.

i almost cost myself 10% reduction from my ethics essay as i woke up late and found out tht the due time to pass it up was 11am...thank goodness i double checked and have like 30 mins b4 11am to read thru, print and run to sturt campus. After the exhausting morning i had, i decided to treat myself to a little shopping spree...when i said ‘little’ shopping spree, my budget was a limit of $50 bucks but then it turns into a $160 bucks purchase...well at least i got free goodies..><..Once agn, Jason’s words ‘u need self control Sheila’ haunts my freaking head...i felt soooo guilty after tht...sigh....i really need to stop myself frm overspending.

i woke up in a faze and walked to the loo, bumped into Ryan today and he scared the bejezuz out of me...first Alex, now Ryan...why do my friends bring boys bk and then let them stay for the night without informing us housemates???

6th sushi nom noms in a week...ada s'kit banyak tu...we spend $300++ bucks in a week just for dinner..haha..me and lanny got sushi fever all week...

i cut my own fringe few days ago...i donno why i did tht..it was just pure honest stupidity...and now, its soooo short

i was aiming for this fringe...but it turns out bad for me..haha...so cacat lar weih....

for next week, i've got 1 ethics assignments due on monday, 1 presentation slide that needs to be refinded thats due on tuesday, 1 whole book with 13 chapters to read for the online quiz worth 30% which is due on thursday and all i can think of doing is to SLEEP MY HEAD AND NERVES OFF. i would either just sit infront of the heater sipping hot cocoa, have my mp3 on full blast, or sleep. how sad, i feel so lazy to achieve this course..Though i wish i could cause i love my job. i dont mind switching courses...to maybe easier ones like i donno...business? cause i have always wanted to work in a office.

(P/s: the views are taken while i was on my way bk to the units from my sturt campus...aint it a beauty?)

JUST NOW, AT OUR 15 MINS BREAK, THIS IS WHAT WE TALKED BOUT.

NURSE A: oo..my 11yo daughter baked muffins last night.

NURSE B: well, i would have to cook for my 3yo son.

NURSE C: my husband nvr cooks..

NURSE D: o..really? my husband is such a great cook

NURSE E: haha...my bf cooks and cleans the house for me.

NURSE F: well i would have to cook for my bf, but then he sents me to the hospital at 7am..so yeah.

(ALL A, B, C, D, E, F LOOKS AT ME)

me: err..no bf, not married nor engaged..my bro cooks for me, but i'll have to do the chores....ada sad nia my life...O.O

i did this after watching 'Cry baby'.. it looks scary..haha...but then i only know how draw it on one side..

i drink and eat my sorrows away. upset with what Lou said, as my shift ends at 3, i had my smiling face on for hrs, as i got out of OEH, my stubborn tears won’t stop flowing, the more i think about it, the more i find her words very unkind, she is so unreasonable and at the same time bias. My patients loves me, my RN is impressed with my hard work..but Lou is such a pain.

in the end, i had sushi for dinner agn...i can only eat yummy foods to swallow up the pain.

omg...liwen went to the teddy bear museum at Korea...><..envy soooo much...arg...i wanna work now and earn as much money as i could save to go there to visit sammy and daniel, and most of all i wanna eat nice korean food..i was hungry for korean food at 12am this morning..haha...It’s like a dilemma..i wanna go Tokyo too..

from my fav korean seriesjack and rose in titanic..prince C and princess D

I want sushi train's tiramisu cake! I’m sooooo tempted to drive out now. i'm like the safest driver in SA..haha..cause i drove about 40km/hr yesterday.

LOLness of life. i've capture a priceless pic of a flying idoit.

i'm gonna keep taking pictures when my face aint full of acne for now...as exams's coming and i couldnt stop stuffing myself with chocolates, so i bet when exams over next month, i'll look like a pimply bloated balloon..>v<..

been day dreaming a lot lately...i day dream during my lecs,tut,and workshops...by the end of the week, i have not learned anything at all. janice has been doing me a favour by poking me onced in a while to wake me up from my dreamy faze..

i'm gonna dress up nice and pretty tomolo..as i'm taking pics with mum and bro at my fav sushi shop...haha...

patient's great today, i did a handover infront of all the nurses, i was so nervous..but then i got thru tht..both patients were angels today, i visited Mr Frome today..he was happy to see me..haha..i'm like his fav student nurse in tht ward..i love him to bits..cute chap. i was sooooo bored tht i gave both my patients leg massages...haha..

oo..ooooo..guess whose coming bk to adelaide during August...ZHEN ZHU NAI CHAR!!! omg...i miss him soooo much..he APUUUUUed me tht day...haha...i kinda have forgottern tht i taught him tht word..heres a picture of him..one year passed sooo fast..i cant believe its almost one year since i've seen him in flesh...

i was right, the leng zai nutrionist's name is john..haha..

happy birthday grandmamma..(pics taken with her grandchildrens and great grandchildrens)

In life, are you a prey or predator? Life would be better if you are in control of it.

(p/s: i'm stressed out of my wits.acne is slowly finding its way back to my face)

My FRIEND bitch is purposely trying to piss me off with her over loaded honesty crap. wanna play with fire eh? bring it on sister!

the worse is over now.with or without u, i still can lift myself up high, i've gone a long way without u,and i'm certain that i can live without u in my life. good bye my friend, may our friendship rest in peace and our souls meet again in the future.

arg...today was exhausting...i'm soooo tired...my legs are both so sore due to the fact tht i've been standing most of the time from 1-9pm. i was so angry at Gloria yesterday , tht i cursed her to die very painfully on her last day on earth.

As for today, i got 7 new patients in the ward, working at team 3, with 2 nurse..as i 2nd year, i specifically requested for 2 patients but was given 4...i have been running here and day all afternoon...3 out of the 4 patients i got had MRSA...so i had to put on gowns and gloves before entering their room which is a pain...

garrrrr....and to make it worse, I’m having my monthly visits and my headache had gone up a notch with a dangerous fever lurking near me.

one patients who i was taking care of chocked on her meds...i so scared...i mean if i wasnt there to help her, she might have died..glad, i caught up with her and gave a big fat whack on the back...

All my agony fades away when you hold me in your embrace. Dont tear me down and make my heart a better place. Try to give me something i can believe as i'm here on the edge again and you know that i'm only one step away from turning around.

when i sleep, i hoped to see u in my dreams as thats the only way we could see each other again.

.you are always one phone call away.

call me anytime and i'll be right there for you, i'll lift you up when your feeling down,i'll help u to undo the selfish things u've done.

i'm enjoying my clinical but could do better without gloria. given 2 patients today, they were sweet angels.. :D

i had to walk lionel for his daily walk, he was a cheek...wanted to hug me all the time and kept whispering secrets to my ears...i avoided him the whole day today..afraid he might called out "wheres my little sweet sheila???" agn....he's an agressive patient whose got called for code blacks...apparantly, most of the nurse at tht ward hates dealing with him, and so i was left with the dirty work...but lionel wasnt giving me such a hard time...he even announce to the whole ward saying tht 'we getting married'...O.O...i am soooo not gonna marry him...

i saw tht good lookin doctor from FMC last year, i dint know he goes to QEH now...so adorable... :P~~~~ i'm guessing he's name would either be a jon,nate,nathan,jonathan or david...

got new hand warmers from sportsgirl..am sooo loving it..hehe...i went to marion with janice this afternoon, the last time i was there was last dec..and every one of my friend was like 'harrrrr sheila, u serious?!?' haha..yeah...i know...how sad..><i'm gonna be an organ donor...i would register and sign the papers hopefully by next week...no objections..i wanna do it...hopefully dad would approve.

feel,breathe and believe it..and u will be walking on air..

u knw tht i love u, darling just go on...

those patients of mine arent frail like what i was told, they are bulky and heavy, and if one of them falls ontop of me, i'll have broken bones in my body.

my fat arms was in pain after clinical...heavy lifting all day long..

i dint have lunch as i tot theres a tea break, but sadly...there arent and i waited till dinner to have my meals...i feel so faint and weak, and had the most pain ass kicking headache ever..i wanted to throw up all afternoon...it was a bad experience..brain dead.

when i wake up and all my dreams about u, i wanna see your face to know that i've make it thru..

why do i regret not being able to spend every day with him when i had the chance to?

being with him,just to be with him i could give it all up just to be happy..i wanna laugh with him, cry on his shoulders, be next to him and share my daily life with him.

being with him makes me smile and he brings out the bubbly side of me...just being able to talk to him, hear his voice, and knowing that he trust me makes me want him more..i've tried to open up my eyes, i'm hoping for the chance to make it alright...i've thrown my cards and i'll give you my heart.

after yesterday's placement, i find doing IM injections fun...haha..i asked Dani(the RN) if i could do the im injections for the night, she said alright, and i look forward into doing it agn...but then the thing i hate most bout IM injections is by doing the drug cal first...its fustrating...arg...

my aim for next week is doing a wound dressing ..i watched one yesterday..the blood wont stop flowing...and we were out of gauge...it was a sticky situation, but my mates got the hang of it...

they called it god's gift for the day...but i call it the awesomeness of mind reading..haha...just when i had a dream bout a friend and was thinking of him all day...he messaged me out of the blue...denise said tht he must hv missed me too...well..frm the conversation, i'll rather say tht he just happens to pass by.

No offences,but i find it very sick when Adam Lambert sings bout "Give it to ya til your screamin' my name ", "Imma hurt you real good baby " and "it’s about to get rough for you" when he's gay...its sick i knw, but i've seen enuf ding dongs today, i dont think Adam Lambert's song is helping me in clearing tht image.

someone onced asked me why do i bother to blog.. well simple, its cause Memories fades quicker than ink. so why not write it down and read bk what i wrote a few years ago.

okay...now, a quick guide for kefv, tht kid picks up the oral meds he dropped and popped it bk into his mouth...omg...first, get the meddont do this as u r gonna contaminate other tablets in the container. i prefer my tablets to be individually sealed...read the labels...and make sure its the right dose.AND KEFV..Dont u ever pick it up and popped it bk to ure mouth...tsk tsk...i caught u doing it.. tht 3 secs thinggy is just bulls...no such thing as u can still eat it if its not on the ground for more than 3-5 secs..

P/s: this is just for fun, credits to kefv for the pictures..haha...i was talking to him via mircophone while doing all this.

y am i like always the last one to knw whats been going on? its not fair...why all these wonderful moments must be announced when i'm always unable to make it for the outings? :(

no wonder yy was so bubbly...now i knw...haha...congrats yy..

omg..thts so cool if 3 of my friends go on triple dates..haha..aino&gary, denise&alex, yy&ara..

FORGET it!!! if u dont want this, neither would i anymore!!..feelings for someone cant just instantly build up, u would have to give it time to grow..

a friend of mine said tht when he first saw me, all he can see is this moody,emo girl right infront of him who always wears black and hardly smiles. and he thn ask me this question, "sheila, What's your perspective in life? What do u see in your future? What do u look forward every morning when u wake up?"

i answered 'i dont have anything to look forward to , everyday is a blank to me, at times, i dont even see the point of living as earth is just like hell to me, dont u think so? we are born to this world to work our butts off just to live a happy life, theres no joy in this sick world'.. its all about the money, everyones greedy for a taste of good life..and so am i...and if any of u would bring the word god/prayer/jesus suffering to this picture, i'm sooo gonna kick u.