Sociology, can i be reminded of why i'm taking this shit again? i had this in first year..and now, i'm taking a 3rd year in sociology? eish! whats the difference? i got a HD in that topic, *wipes hands. and thats it, its history. argggg....goddamm..i hate sociology. and now, i've gotta write a 1500 word essay about feminism and woman's health policy.

again, for the 3rd day in a row, i concur and succeed in doing nth but watch tellie and play Diablo. wooo!!! I rock. I’ve nvr felt so free.

shopping for easter bunnies anyone? i'm going egg shopping later on. o smack! i need to find something for gary for he's birthday. Jason is still trying to use the force on me to go to gary's bd...havent seen tht dude tht likes to tickle me since last sep? (well he saw me with zhen, i saw he's side when he turned into MCD).

cupcakes! aino wrapped it up for me. how lovely.

ate two cupcakes for dinner. :P i'm like getting fatter and fatter by the day. while xiao shuai is getting thinner as he claims to be swimming, now tht he's at KL.

watched 'how to deal' last night. up until the last minute of the movie, i realise i've watched it b4 ages ago. Xs says he's gonna motivate me to study harder and look out for me from far. wow, what devotion. haha.

going to c.p today. once again, looking at blood,machine,wires,tubes and needles. how depressing. damm nursing's so depressing. i cant stand watching ppl at the end stage of their lifes, in pain, and taking up like 14 meds a day. well at least one day i could help someone out, as i'm gonna donate my organs when i die.

just a bit tired, cause i spend 2 hrs playing diablo with lanny last night, got distracted and died like 3 times. arg!.

I made chicken and mushroom pot pie. it was so good tht i had two for lunch...baking it for the girls during out pot luck session. i'm planning for another outing with the girls this weekend (if they are free of course). i became the last min kinda girl when dealing with assignments. i cant believe from being all prepared and nearly finished a month ahead in first year, to doing double check two weeks b4 due on 2nd year to the day b4 its due in 3rd year. What the heck happened??? i used to be the girl tht goes to the library every night with zhen in first year, with me reading up on AnP and him watching some dramas on youtube. To going to the library once or twice a week or going over to janice's unit to finish up on workloads on 2nd year. To this girl whose too lazy to even step out of the unit in 3rd year. Guess the lazy bug finally got me. I'm just too lazy to care in 3rd year. Too lazy to study on it. Too depressed to even concentrate on workloads. Everytime he rings asking me on why i aint studying, all i can say is i'll deal with it later, and its all bunched up at the corner. pictures got taken without my permission. but then got vain after tht. i was caught using my WTPooh phone. cause my nokia went flat after whatsapp-ing lit mickey all day. (hmmp..i should really stop calling him tht, tht nickname was given ages ago when young, i should now call him xiao shuai. cause thts he's nickname by friends. and i cant call him just mickey as there another guy with the nickname mickey at perth)..haha..o well..i donno why mickey. but then its cute.

Last friday was A-some. Had pizza and pasta at scoozi's. pic's with yy. went to rundle, did grocery shopping with the girls. After that, went to body shop where all of us buttered ourself with yummilicious body butter. :P ..yy took us all to order our cupcakes...and the anticipation of it arriving at my door on monday is a bit too much, so in the end, i got my own yummy violet butterfly. (i sorta accidentally scaped part of the frosting while opening the box)

and now, with green tea by my side, and a tummy full of noodles..i proceed into finishing my damm assignment. i cant believe i took 2 and a half days just to finish this stupid assignment with no questions and just statements of clinical settings. i feel like i'm dealing with Mr meyer all over again X(

i got my results from drug cal. just as i suspected, they checked workings. and i got 9/10. and i need to resit for tht agn. ARG!!! should have given my draft paper with my correct workings instead.

well i would think its caused the pressure, and with what happened last dec, and plus i was mentally exhausted cause of clinical and having to deal with 3 assignments which is due next week. i in the in burst into tears. rang yy up, she walked to FMC, i picked her up, when to her house and just talked it out. i felt so much better after tht..then end up joking, going crazy laughing and giggling again..even collin said its good to see tht i'm destressing. well to get to tht bit, i cancled out on clinical today, cause of last night, puffy eyes..and i will deal with tht later, and i'm going out with the girls for lunch today.. :D:D soooo happy..

but b4 that, i need to finished at least one question from my online quiz today :D

Communication Failure~

Girl: give me some time, i need space to breathe.

Boy: (translated) Lets just break it off. And dont think u should wait for me.

WTF. (www.gg.com)

The next thing u know is that the blame is on you, the one that needs some time to breathe.

Aino invited me for Japanese yum yums at the main campus. :P~~

Had fun with my group at workshop just now. Couldnt stop laughing at the dummie which was this week's Pt, Mr meyer. i couldnt do CPR as i keep slipping off the pt's bed cause of my shinny tights.

Arg..why placements? i am missing out on outing with the girls this friday cause of my placements.

i'm gonna doll up tomolo as i'm going out for dinner. YAY!

luke is going somewhere..i donno where it is..brahim?? i donno..i donno how its affecting me catching up with him. 7 hrs apart..its so hard to talk to him. Plus Whatapp is draining both of our phone batt. dang.

i cant rmber most of what has been going on in my sec school years..whats more Alvls..all i do rmber tht i was a happy child and i love going to sch cause i wanna see my friends again.

i'm suffering from memory lost here. i just cant rmber at all. when i think about a certain period of life in sec sch, my mind goes blank. the only thing i rmber are those tht were wrote in my diary, my kiki book, and blog. (O.O)..omgawd...what the heck happened?

Jimmy eat world is one of the best bands ever..listen to their songs when ure feeling down..it suits the mood best.

friday night did not turned out the way i planned, i wanted food, the guys wanted beer. starved, unhappy, bored while waiting for the guys to drown up the beers. Lanny was happily high. collin made me talk. he wanted to know why i've been depressed. i cant believe i welled up infront of him. of course no tears flowing out, but just tears welling up in my eyes. after tht, he brought my mood down,i lost my appetite completely. went bk to ray's apartment..i was completely lost in tots. reached home at 1.30am.

I invited Denise and Alex for pizzas at 5pm. we waited an hr for the delivery @.@ Alex was at the same time funny in the conversations and shy...well mostly quite during dinner, while me and Denise was sharing inside jokes..I laughed till there was tears in my eyes...it was so inappropriate..but yeah...in front of Alex and room 1 (i will get to later) we were talking about bobbies..LOL

Yeah...cause we both agreed when watching one of the Asian movies, with Jay chow and Gong Li in it..i think it’s called the golden flower?..not sure..anyhoos..Me and Denise have no clue what the story of the movies about. We both agreed that all rmbered was looking at a bunch of boobies and then the next thing we know is tht the show has ended. lol

Room 1, yes..i call my housemates by room numbers..(Sad now isn’t it?)..Well cause i can nvr rmber their names... and so with the help of Denise, i got the names of room 5, which is Ashlee (i gv her the nickname of brunette cause of her hair colour)..and cassie (room 2, which i call her as the tall one)...i donno whats the name of room 1 (which I’ve given the name of the blonde one/ the one whose name starts with the letter "s")..and room 4, which I’ve nvr talked about. AND on top of tht, all 4 of my housemates, rmbers my name from day 1, they always greets me whenever we bumped into each other..i feel so dopey 

its not even 3 days yet, i cant even keep my hands off tht jar of olives ..grrrrr....Urusla got me hooked up on olives. (yes, i really hate olives before that, and now i'm addicted)..i've preserved mine in dried chillies,oregano, garlic and bathe them in olive oil..and for it to get tht yummy taste, i would need to perserve it for a week..but my jar of olive's almost finish cause i couldnt stop munching on those yummies.

ursula cut some fresh herbs and flowers for me (but sadly, the flowers died in just 2 days, i guess, i dint preserve them well)..then she gave me a potted plant to start me off with gardening. i have no idea what tht plant is.

if only i can get Jim to get my landscaping done, cause i wanna plant some of wisteria

see how pretty these plants are.

Over the holidays, i've learned knitting, asked zhen to learned it, asked mamma to Learn it, in the end; i learn it all on youtube. btw, Zhen told me its heck sissy to be doing this kind of shit as a guy and mamma told me knitting are for Grannies

I’ve knitted only two scarves (@.@) well..i did knit a heart square shaped piece which I’m so lazy to get on with (and yes, that was luke's valentines gift, what a shame tht I can’t find the time to finish tht piece, plus I’m gonna embarrassed him crazy with tht bright pink color tht i knitted the hearts in)

plus, while knitting, i was told by Nancy tht some guys don’t appreciate DYIs by girls..The best example would be my cousin fred.

this was my first piece, i love how the green looks, even lanny thinks its pretty too. What an enormous compliment.

this is slightly different, For mum, i traveled to the spotlight, got lost and all just to get this reddish color wool as mum would love it (and partly cause i wanted her to stop taking my scarves) LOL...

maybe its cause i went to the gym, ran till my whole body feels like jello...i feel so happy, bright and relaxed (cause i refuse to look at any books at the mo). and i get to treat all the girls for a gym session tomolo. YAY!!!!! i was thinking of treating them for zumba or dance, or maybe just cardio, and if they want weight lifting, i dont mind too. just their preference.

and whats more, zhen was concern about me (i feel so touched). and lanny tagged me (u can view it on fb) a video of me and my cousins..damm funny, and even when young, i look so damm mean..(O.O)...apuuuuuuuu...i donno why i gv someone a hard stare like as if i wanna kick them..

i seriously dunno why i have a build in instinct to totally tune out from some guys. Like when adeline introduced me to paul (her housemate), i just smile, talk for a while, and then SKL him without even knowing i’m doing it. And then i made lewis feel so lefted out (O.O). i just donno why i do tht?

Like tonight, while my housemates are having friends over, Von <-- remember him? Tht guy i used to think is cool, tease me till one time i got so mad at him infront of zhen. And yes, tht Von who is so damm hilarious at times. Hilarious when he finds other ppl’s weakness and tab kua kua, till tht person wanna si ki. Ok...i got side tracked...yes, Von was at my unit, and sadly, he kena SKL chin chin cause my housemate sorta whispered my name while i was back facing them and he said quite loud enuf tht he knows me, and was like ‘sheila, hey...smiles *laugh..thn awkward silence’ with me still staring at him trying to figure out who this dude is...Von: while talking to him friend in a embarrassed way “erm, she just stands there and i don’t think she remembers me”. Thts whn i snapped out of it and whispered “von??”....Von: *smiles..yeah. me : *smiles....walk away, i feel so embarrassed upon meeting him in my mickey mouse pants and elmo shirt, what a mess...i haven’t seen him since first year..and he has changed a lot..like seriously, the hair and all...

Have u ever had those kinda moments where the song that was playing at that very moment reminded you of a special event? Yeah. and tht sorta brings out one of the happiest moments in life and u don’t want it to end. I, at times imprint someone with a song. :)

Even without trying, i have a feeling that i would not be able to get thru for this year. it’s just so hard. i donno how ppl can achieve this very tiring course. Stressful and sooooo unappealing. I questioned myself as to why i took this course in the first place. Why cant i be like those that doesnt have to study but have gained so much in life. arg. My tutor told me that when u study this course, it doesn’t mean that u would end up being a nurse. As being a nurse (even tho she is one) has a very dark set back as by helping others, we end injuring my body. She said it is known that doing shift works takes out 10 years of ure life. OMG . otk tok kei??.

eik, i might as well take this degree, go bk to miri and do what I’ve always wanted to do. A teacher? :D or or maybe i get to work in a office XD ..Office girls dressed up elegantly, is pretty looking and whats more, they get to wear heels. XD (x2) ..yeah..I’m dreaming of something tht is soooo good to be true.

me: doctor, i'm feeling unwell.

doc: whats wrong my dear?

me: my heart hurts. *while placing a palm over my heart

doc: *panic look in his eyes*, where is the pain? how serious it is? how long have u had the pain?

me: o. erm its just here *pointing at where my heart is located. i'm not quite sure how serious it is, but i dont think u'll be able to cure it.

doc: if its a heart attack, i might need to sent u to the ED. ok tell me exactly what happen.

me: he left me and i am heartbroken. *SOBS

doc: ok..lets see...eh? WHAT? what is this about? a boy?

me: *nods

doc: U.Came.to.me.with.pain.concerning.a.guy?????

me: *nods again.

well the next thing i knw is tht i'm rushed out of the docs room and my alarm clock rang telling me its 9am. what a shitty dream i have. hah!. all thanks to the drama i've recently watch, it floods my head with nonsence.

Okay, this couldn’t be happening, upon stressful events, leading me to negative tots, with shitloads of endless workloads, the most saddest thing happened to me. *sigh* all those time i sacrifice for that boy went straight to the bin. Useless, pathetic and meaningless. O, btw, Aus boyz really weird lar. 2 weeks of dating, and they can call it quits. (of course this isnt to mua, but aino's friends)

And now, not to mentioned, Aino is trying to pair me up with her housemates..lol..Funny girl with a big heart, but no, i must study first..i need to study first, my time and effort is devoted to my workloads and placements.

I can’t blardy hell contact tht damm luke. I donno whats he's number at the dessert, he's hardly online. i send a whatsapp and waited for 12 hrs of response.

Well on the bright side, i get to shop with the girls today, went for lunch with em, and then they came and have dinner at my unit. It was just nice to see them all agn.

*btw, i fell sick AGAIN! damm..it was half way thru 3103. yy said she would drag the screaming and kicking me to the hospital if she needs to just to get me cured. plus, kath said if she did hear me say the word "sick", she’s booking the appointment straight away. haha..what such wonderful and non sense friends I’ve got.

Nancy showed me a pregnant pic of her friend. Both of us won’t stop admiring how good her friend looks. she’s practically glowing. I swore i wanna look as good as her when I’m preg. I dont wanna be puffed up like a ball and my hubby would just look at the wall instead of me cause i look like a goddamm blowfish.

Going bk to the units tonight. *sad. Its sem 1 all over again. The girls kept calling asking to meet up with me, cause apparently everyone has met each other and non of them has seen me yet.

I hoped i dont look green with pain and red like a crab, cause I’m still suffering from the side effects of the pills taken.

Meeting Janice tomolo. super duper yayness.

i was hoping to go out for dinner tomolo so tht i wont have to cook..heh :) steamboat with the gurls sounds fantastic. if not, i could always take a 5 mins bus ride to Janice's place and stay there till she kicks me out. haha..i'm dying to go have a look at her new crib.

Might see if the boys are busy this Friday, i don’t mind going to the Belgium bar to catch up, plus Ah bern still has my stuffs.

stayed in bed till noon reading books. damm lazy. i like. its relaxing. but then i'm going to uni tomolo to sort things out, unpack but then i'll meet up with the girls next week.

Fringe opened up last friday, i donno who i'll be going with this year, bro and reuben or me and the girls.

i am soooo not prepared for 3rd year. a bit scared of whats to come. i dint even know how i survived the last 2 years of horror.

plus, i realise if i go into GNP, i will need to be in either ICU or Emergency (which is sooooooooo not okay with me, i cant do those two..i really am not ready for the rush)

Hey hun, since u are nvr online, and i saw ure update on me. I dint even get to see bu, i was sick from day one till i came bk to perth. damm tht darn weather in perth really is playing tricks on me. btw, CNY was heck boring. @.@. like seriously...well at least i spend my night at the casino..hehe..

GODDAMM this idotic driver almost killed me. well.thank goodness i slowed down my speed cause i saw a van and tot it was the police. out of the blue while driving in the pouring rain at the T junction, this car speed out of control on the left and did a 360 degrees turn right infront of me. IF i was to sped up, he would have crash into me and by god, he was way over sped.

*sigh. drug cal agn. i rather drown in misery than to solve maths.

A friend recently sent me some weird pics. at first, i tot it was a Halloween costume of a failure clown to be. but then he told me its a type of fashion in Japan. wtheck man! What is this? A fashion? More like a clown or make up failure for the disturbed creatures lurking in Japan. I find the pictures very disturbing.

HECTIC days more to come!

nvm. Study first. Forget about guys. Think about them later. Talk to zhen to ease my pain *thumbs up SHEILA!

Man i really do think uncle David's wife is so damm cool..who won’t love a mum tht interacts with ppl of all ages, has a cool tattoo, love watching dramas, and is easy to shop with as she is so mod with her taste, damm funny to the max. i just dont get why her daughter is such a drag. Why can’t she be polite, happy and damm fun to talk to like her mum.

Spiders.i find them everywhere. why do they invade my house instead of the shed outside?

JETLAG's A BITCH


i dint even get no beauty sleep last night. i saw denise at the airport, but she was with alex and he's friends.

adeline has been bored like crazy, she kept asking me when i'll be back.

adelaide's so much cooler. like always...and my nauseous case is turning its head back to sick land...yay!!! see...i told everyone (but no one believes me) that i would feel better once i'm bk to adelaide.

internet has been hard to acesss due to insufficient cable, so thats why i dint blog. i havent heard from luke since monday (which is beyond weird, as this kid would message me relentlessly all day)..but o well..i dont mind the peace n quite from my phone for just a little mo

yeah, unpacking is so damm annoying...i dont travel light..haha...i realise most of these are facial products.

i did a recount (including those tht werent shown in the pic above) and realise i've got 11 bottles of body lotion (janice calls my house a heaven to promote soft and beautiful skin. LOL) , 5 bottles of sun lotion, 14 bottles of perfumes, 4 types of acne creams, 4 diff brands of facial cleanser, 1 litre of Hairspray (the bottle's freakingly huge, thanks to zhen, convincing me to get a good value, i've only used it 5 times since September), 3 types of eye cream, and a hell lot of weird small bottle of samples for the face. *gulped. i seriously need to stop myself from getting all these junks.

walau eh,the songs this year are all so techno...my ears bleed and my headache increase with intensity whenever i turn the radio on.

3 more days till Valentines. luke got me a brown bunnie (from the nickname he gv me, yeah..i'm a godamm rabbit to him) plush toy while shopping at KL, he got one for himself too. just in a few days time, he will be flying to the dessert. i dont even know how he's gonna gimme tht toy so in end, i ask him to give it to he's cousin. i donno how am i to send him he's stuff in 3 days time.. i think i'll just keep it till then. heh.

my hair needs extra texturing for it isnt tht straight anymore (><)

i dont even know if i could go bk on july, cause i will need to see how my class goes, cause janice has got tutorials during the mid term break..i might need it too depending on what electives i'm taking.

hello ppl!!! Happy CNY. Fancy wears but no place to go...how dull.

new lippy :) got it with my own money. i usually get lippies as gifts, yeah..seriously all 5 lippies are gifts..and now i have my own..peach.

been getting massive calls one after another from yesterday till now....why does everyone wants me at perth HAR???

The sentence "i dont wanna go" reaches deaf ears.

comm'on ppl...go dwld Whatsapp..u dont need no iphone to use tht application...reuben told me tht u can also dwld it if ure using Nokia or blackberry...not sure about other phones tho..i rmber hearing about this long ago when my bro started using iphone...and now i got a few friends hooking up with this application...just last night, i chatted with luke till i fell asleep..@.@. ooo..hunnnie!!!! i'm sowreee i fell asleep..so i couldnt reply you..haha.

i donno when it has started...but i love rock music more than ever..with a mixed of those 80's country musics...its so sooothing to the heart.

i guess, i'll have to thank OTH for this...and plus, denise with it...i am inlove with rock music...plus, the cure rocks ass. and now interpol has just been added to the list..:)

with all the support and help..i am so grateful for the some of the guy friends in my life..little mickey made my day yesterday...he reminded me (on some of our past) that both of us used to sneak out to the lake just at where we went to camp to meet each other..(something so precious and yet i cant even rmber)

and kev, knowing tht its been hard for me made sure tht he works hard enuf to earn some extras just to come over to see me. its not nessesary but he insisted, so tht i wont be bored during uni breaks.

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with luke, whose always there for me..gosh...he's awesome.

anyhoos..i'm feeling better, no more rebellious attempts to find ways to scar my body.

I dreamt that i worked as an office girl (my dream job, cause of the ironed crisp white blouse i get to wear)..anyhoos...and then got myself a house at this dull place with Zhen as my next door neighbour. Instead of being a businessman, he was a professional photographer (carrying that huge device everywhere he goes, wearing a striped shirt ,y-suspenders, a brown short pant and those wool fedora hats (almost like what those Korean males would wear). And of course, days with him was funny and he was lame too...and weird, he won’t stop snapping pics of my house telling me it was just practice, shrugging like it’s no big deal. Whats worse, i donno why this chick (i really don’t like her as she annoys me) was at my house and flirting big time with zhen, i wanted to whack her good. For the blind friend of mine is falling for her charms.

Thats when i told him i was pea green and woke up,..i went online, and there is was, a message from Zhen. Haha

this reminds me of something zhen said to me 2 years bk,

zhen: i dreamt about u last night.

me: o? what was it about.

zhen: not sure about the details, but all i know it tht it was a crazy one.

There is just two names i swore to Denise tht i will nvr ever wanna get hooked up with. it’s so bad tht i feel like i am cursed to nvr be happy with mens who are named after these two particular Hebrew names.

And so for today, while I was shopping for sun blocks and meds for lanny, I came across a very cute pharmacist...and well, wadduknow..Surprise surprise!! He’s name is one of those that i swore one of the gods up there jinx my life with....WHY?! o WHY?! Am i usually attracted to guys who are named * and *.

At least the tackiest I’ve been introduced to was Morgan for a guy. I tot Morgan was a girl..

Was reminded that CNY is in 2 weeks time. i myself nvr keep track on the days and dates.

Not in the NY mood..there’s no street deco’s to remind me on the very special occasion, no fire crackers, no yummy snacks, cookies, cakes or etc. Boy, this is dull.

So in conclusion, i decided (hopefully, parents allow) to not celebrate cny this year, cause there’s no point to it as i myself (not until a few hrs ago) don’t even bother to rmber when is the exact date. I rather just stay at Adelaide and cook something special for the occasion. And if not, maybe just go there on the 2nd week of Feb. so that i can meet up with Nancy, bu and the 2 Mickeys.

Janice came over and stayed for the night. She cooked dinner while I made chocolate Oreos. :) was superb, watched 'remember me' after dinner and had tons of catching up since last dec.

Told her about that Skype guy, she also laughed at what he wrote (see...like seriously...see what i mean, this guy is really a weird one...if janice thinks so, tht means its beyond compare cause she hardly criticise on others)

While watching the movie, Janice cant stop complaining about Robert pat’s hair, saying it looks like a bird’s nest, while I can’t stop complaining about adian’s hair saying it looks like rolled up noodles.

Lanny is coming bk tonight, with scabies...(eyes rolling, o..GREAT..this is just what i need, more bugs in the house)...i am so freaked out i disinfect most the sheets and carpets in the house.

Had lunch with Simon and Janice at Outback Jack. When Simon said tht he is going to sg and then hk tonight, i dialed dad's number and annoy him like hell (i am so pissed off, like i said b4, when someone says things like they are going back to Sg, HK, or malaysia...My anger rises with a twist of fustration)

even with the GPS dad got me, i still got myself lost in main north road..wth man...whats wrong with me...i just did what i do best just now which is to follow the car infront of me...thank goodness, i had more than 30 mins to spare to help me browse for wools in spotlight.

i'm getting pretty lazy day by day, even cancel a dinner invitation from reuben to eastern garden. (O.O) gosh..i just canceled on good yummy yum yums.

to make up for it, i might ask him out on steam boat at mings. :)

i love how the house smells now :D got a new bottle of perfume and since i dint get the chance to use it, i sprayed it all over the house. out of boredom i guess. *shrugs.

Cindy, rmber when i drove u to the city at adelaide, and u told me tht u like Jacarandas...well..i've got 2 pretty pics for you.

anyhoos, got my hair cut at Justcuts this morning, it looks great. love how smooth my hair is now without the annoying dry ends.

Had an AWESOME day..even tho it started pouring from the moment i walked out of the house ard 8.30am till 7pm today. what a cold and sad summer. but then i aint complaining, cause i get to wear my coats and very comfy t-shirts to sleep. :)

i went to uni today to get a head start of info for my up coming ilets, i was told by simon (this guy i met there) tht i need not take it cause i could have sat for OET instead, but then i paid everything. so yeah, sitting for the real one next sat.

the practice exam started with writing (which, sadly is my worst enermy) but then got amazing marks from Jermal (my 2103 tutor, who was very impressed with my essay :D , i've always liked this funny man who makes 2103 very enjoyable..so getting a good remark from him, made my day)

plus, when Amanda muller, wanted us to change partners, going from bill (a nursing lecturer)..i got simon (a shanghai, pre-registeration dude, who was also a very nice guy, altho, i do find it hard to understand him a bit, but heck, he's very fun to talk to, very optimistic, very polite, understanding..o...lets not forget, very cute. LOL)

and then i went to marion to shop for some yum yums, got bk home and got my police clearance checked out (its like i could hear the angels in the sky singing alleluia).

Zhen left for hk agn.

I tot I might see him agn in 3 weeks time, but then the day b4 he left, he said something about getting a job there and if he's offer is accepted, he might not come bk and continue he's masters degree at hku. :'( damm sad lar wieh...i know i'm mostly to be blame...cause i kept declining the offer to go out with him (cause i tot i might see him again and plus, i'm damm lazy to hang ard the city)...the final offer tht i declined was the hk trip...i really cant go, whats more i cant even go bk Miri, and he expects me to take a flight with him on the 3rd to hk...

no more sleepy voice, no more lame jokes, no more 'Kelly or crazy suki jokes', no more leng zai/leng lui point outs, no more supporting comments and etc. all because i have experienced this b4, once someone close to me leaves, out friendship is partially torn as I’m bad at keeping contact. I am and have been trying okay..SOME of u guys aren’t trying hard enuf...

I've made a deal to go hk this coming dec (cause zhen said he wants to take me to this fantastic japanese restaurant, shopping, wants me to experience having fantastic yum yums at ard 2-4am in the morning) i told dad..and he said if i go to hk, i cant go bk to Miri..wth?! why make me choose??? Zhen, Sammy, Ming, jack, Gary, Collin VS my friends and family at Miri. Of course dad would ask me to choose...all my friends in hk are guys well except for Ming Ming. I could add Teresa and angie in it, but then I’m not close to them.

just arrived at Adelaide not long ago...had 2 hrs of sleep last night as I have nightmares continuously..It was something to do with the 'I shouldn’t be alive' TV shows...about plane crash and survivals...i felt nauseas after tht...

I long to receive my police clearance but after 7 godamm weeks, the form and the person involved with it SKL me...very damm juak...even Pauline ask where I got all my patience from...as if it was her, she would be screaming..I’m so close to crashing myself.

Got myself a windows 7 yesterday...still trying to get use to it...i think my windows vista was way better than windows 7...i dont even know how to get ard with W7.

him= weirdo..

even zhen asked what he was raving about. why is he getting all pissy about such a small matter. i myself donno what was going on also...

first off he wanted to sent me his pic, i told him just one cause i was using my bro's computer. thn after looking at it...all i can say is ok, yeap..cool. he then ask me if i notice anything different about him from the first pic he sent me a few weeks ago..i dont think there is so i said no. he then gives signals tht he's upset..so i said

Me: what should i notice? the hair? ure fashion(i said fashion cause he's pm was something to do with fashion)

He: ok, nvm...i'm mad at you.

like double wth...what did i say this time? what i wrote was seriously not an insult..i really wanna know whats diff about him in the recent pic..he then say things like i've hurt he's feelings. and then something about him not being good looking at tht pic..and tht i should have lied saying things like nice background, ask where he's at (which is obvious , the hotel lobby)...what the heck man...what does this dude want from me?...

2o11, what am i looking forward to?

can perth be anymore hotter???? i'm melting off like the frozen grapes on the table. 40 degrees for a few days on going..

dinner at billy's with cousins and bros. missed having some LALAs..damm...i was so annoyed by the dull pain in my tummy, couldnt even enjoy dinner and have milk tea...while in the car playing some bluetoothed songs from my phone...blasting the speakers..and thn out of the blues, mickey rang me..and over the silent pin dropping moment, everyone was asking what/ whoses tht..and everyone turned to me...gosh...how embarrasing to have a friend ringing you, and the call got bluetoothed to the car speakers and everyone can hear him greeting me. damm..and then, lanny couldnt stop teasing me tell others it was zhen while fred made some kissing noise...

when i arrive at perth that day, i saw this on my table, thinking its a tissue box, i ignored it..and when i wanted some tissue, i flip and toss the box till i the winnie the pooh thinggy fell offseeeeeeeeeeee...to futher my inspection, cause the god damm thing was hard to open, i realise its actually aphone...(=.=)"..like seriously, double 'wth'...

dad got this for me cause he saw this chick in SH using it..and then he went to the shop, rang me *like what i wrote in one of the post* asking if i wanted a hello kitty phone and when i said no,anna got the hello kitty one while dad got me winnie the pooh.

o well..i'm planning to change my plan to optus next year, cause using 3 here in perth sucks bad...so bro asked his friend about iphone 4 for me..but i seriously cannot..i mean it cannot use touch screens..i suck at it bad...like some of the stuff at our house is touch screen, i find it hard to get ard, cause somehow, touch screens doesnt like me at all..i press the stove button till my fingers bruise and the god damm thing would not even heat up the wok..i set up some numbers at home, and i keep pressing the wrong number...eish...very damm jiok...but i wont mind getting iphone 4 for the games.. :P...

ok...lets see ya...at first, he ignored me for two weeks, i was "advice" to go apologized for whatever i said to him...so i did..even tho i think its all a misunderstanding cause of the lack of emotions that i can show while replying him on instant messaging...fine..whatever..He did say honestly tht he was quite upset with what i said to him...fine..i accept and apologized for it..

and now..he became the same old same old with the constant teasing like *heck buddy, i donno u well and u donno me well and what’s with the teasing?!? and now he is asking so much from me..and i keep thinking to myself why all these type of non sense happens to me sooo often? first the nonsense hk guy..now this??

I don’t like how he gets so upset all the time when zhen is ard me. Right now at this point, i can say tht i don’t mind making him angry agn just so that i can avoid talking to him in the future. Plus i donno why he think theres something going on btw us when i have no heart for him at all. Why cant we just be friends?

i'm stronger than you, i can fight this off without a doc's advice and some medication..let the immune system kicks in :)

how bored...u imagine perth to be super mega awesome..but heck its even worse than adelaide..well at least fred's got tons of gaming device tht i can play with...been so hooked with guitar hero trio with fred as the drummer,lanny as the guitarist, me as the singer...hah!! i set the highest record..hai bu gao xing..

i love my new house, but my room sucks bad, no table, no mirror at least the bed is comfy..wind has been pretty strong here at night...if i do go out, lanny said i might be blown away. heh..

cause of my mega sickness, i have no appetite to eat yummilicious food. even lanny said my tummy shrank...haha..

i wanna go crabbing..but no one wants to take me there..(0.O)..instead they wanna bring me to the casino..

will soon meet my mickey mouse as he's just busy working and with church and when he's free, he would drive me out...yay!!!

this was taken before exams..me and Janice went to kwik sticks...when i saw the portion of food, i couldn’t stop laughing...Janice ordered salt and pepper calamari and i ordered green curry..i wont be bother with finishing up, but janice helped have a big portion of the curry. :)

i realise i wont be having the same class as janice next year.. :( *sad..and whats more, shes not staying at the housing...

went to meet janice for lunch. got myself another book.

zhen graduated today...yay!!! i was at the city at tht time..but thn i dare not go there..cause to be face to face with his parents might draw an awkward conversation.

rundle was pack with heaps and heaps of ppl..everyone is doing the last min shopping.

agn, i up for the last min packing. i donno where this lazy bug came from..

ok...my 2nd christmas present is done for..i spend about 12 hrs on the 600 pages book. now what? back to square one..i need another book...the thing about me reading some made up fantasy is tht i often wish that my life is like that too.. easy breezy and dreamy.

2 nights ago, i had another dream of bk home..i dreamt tht i went to visit granny in her old house. weird as it is as she doesnt live there anymore.. and whats weird, we had a party there where i met this long lost friend of mine, a friend i havent talked to for 11 years.

as for last night, i dream of this peaceful setting in life where i had him, he brought me chocolate donuts (which i have no idea why) he was suddenly the real life Дмитрий that i've dreamt about..which was too good to be true, how can it be, the guy..in adelaide...what about his job/life and love ones he left behind just to be here?..my silly mind must have been too caught up with the recent book i read..i blame the silly imaginations i have on the barbie and ken life.

In real life, when you are in love, the world seems brighter in your eyes. in my dream, the room was so bright but not too bright to hurt my eyes and the aura i got was so colourful and everyone was in a happy state of mind.

PAIN.

Been having this annoying dull pain on the lower right side of my ribcage..Stomach? Liver? Not sure..but have been having this type of pain for a month now..Recently, it has gotten so bad tht i would feel very nauseated...i donno whats wrong and the irrational part of my brain thinks i should just let it glide thru till next year, cause for once i'm lazy to go to the doc..plus, with this pain, i dont think i can drive ard..cause last Friday, i had the pain in the bus, i can say it wasnt pleasant..how would you feel sitting next to someone whose gonna barf any min and you cant do anything about it. bad experience.

christmas gift No.2
i dint even wake up to the pounding of doors..slept till 12pm. and thn saw something leaning on the front door..thts whn i saw this prezzie..awww...why, thank you my muchacho. *ilu.

eish..why not just cut me in half. mum wants me in perth, zhen wants me in hk with him, boy wants me in miri with him, dessert man wants me to go to the dessert with him..

what to do..every single time someone wants me to go bk to miri, it saddens me all over agn..i dreamt of being bk in miri last night..and that me and cindy sat the MRT to my house..and then waited for my bro to come bk with the market's noodles with my cousins..


went to the christmas carol thing with reuben just now. met a lot of malaysian..at times like this, i can say my uni sucks cause u can hardly find so many malaysians there.


while waiting for reuben to finish his band thinggy, rang zhen as he took he's ilets this morning. he has been asking me to go hk with him for sooooooooooooo long.but then i cant go..cause i need to stay back. he tempt me into saying tht he'll bring me shopping and tht we could stay at HKU for experience of his life when he was there..and tht he's got so much to show me in hk...gahhh...i'm soooooo tempted to go with him. i bet he was just spreading sugar towards what he said to me as he says without me, he's life in hk would be boring and tht he prefers to hang with me..pfft..sugar coated words...anyhoos..even at adelaide, i'm soo lazy to go out..even to hang with him..u say ler...how impossible this dream is to him. its not tht he's bad or anything like tht..its just tht, adelaide is hell boring..i would love to hang with him more if it wasnt for the the fact tht he stay so far away...having zhen is like me having a gay friend..haha..(not tht he's gay) but i feel so comfy talking to him about guys..and tht i dont have to talk all the time..cause he sets out the atmosphere for both of us.. and plus, when i go ard shopping (like to sportsgirl and all)..he follows ard and nvr complains..and tht when both of us gets something, we both have very humorous opinion...i can say tht he's not perverted in mind (which maybe he is but doesnt show) and plus..he listens..and good grief..he's got quite a memory to rmber what i've said in the past.

A friend of mine sent me some early christmas prezzie..countless bling blings :D..reading the card infront of him on skype. *loves

i smell like cherries today.. :D while waiting for the green light to get onto the opposite end of the road, this guy, came up and talk to me..cause i was look straight ahead, listening and was sorta singing "coming home by pixie ft jason"..with speakers high blast..he was sorta talking to thin air..i did not realise he was talking to me until i started noticing those infront of me started looking at my direction/me...O.O..but i dint meant to be mean..i just dint hear him...but thn what he wanted to say to me was tht i smell sweet & nice, wanted to know where i'm from and wanted to wish me merry christmas.

i know i know..i'm such a hypocrite...try 24/7 with someone like him, i think I’ll rather dig my own grave. at times this dude is superb..and at times this dude gets into my nerves..at times he knows when to back off with the constant tease. but heck, constant tease with this lunatic?!?..i'll have to say he's a 'no no'..sigh~ only someone like Denise could revive me all up agn...

cant sleep all night as my Dimika is here today..gasp!@

quote from zhen 'mature and older woman are crazy!'

oo..guess what?!? i got 2 shirts from gillies market..yes, GIllies market...for 16 bucks...i am so happy!

All the guys, HE..he was the one who talked some sense into me...he calls me the black widow and I called him the guy with wild and broad with a slice of lunatic imaginations...

After so many weeks of knowing him,some juicy bits are better off selfishly kept from others. *winks

Dearest Cindy, I’m happy to have you over. I love the company. I really did have fun. It’s like having a sister around. I’m just sorry you have to see the temper in me few days ago. I still miss home. But I’ll take your advice. I’m better now. Well...i cant be sure when I’ll see you again..but I’ll see you when i do get the chance to meet up with you in the future. Up until thn, do take care and have a safe trip back home.

Dad rang asking if i wanna Hello kitty phone.. my first reaction was a short pause (thinking i nvr knew hello kitty manufactures phone products, but then hello kitty is a Japanese merchandise..so yeah..go figures)..But then i turned down tht offer..and then i curiosity kicks in and i went web searching for the phones and found these..i actually like this one..i think this was the one cindy described to me when i told her about dad wanting to get me the phone.
but then i'm not into hello kitty would rather not be found having one of any of their products..its like guys having doremons phones (which i dont think they hv, but u get the idea)..plus i'm happy with my phone.. :D

one last pic of my room before i pack everything up. i feel exhausted when packing and whats more, i'm not even half way thru, my room's a mess.. sigh... going to fmc for the volunteer research thing which janice signed me up for.

guess what?!?! i dont need to wait till 7th dec for my dimika... :D