*sigh...some guys are unfair at times.

they are allowed to go to a sex club but if we dreamt of kissing this other dude in our DREAMs, they get a lit pissy about it.

ie. i talked about me dreaming of kissing this friend of mine (of course i have no control of my dreams i donno why it happened but it did) and i get questions throwed at me endlessly and then accusing me of liking tht frog i kissed and then getting all pissy at the end of the day.

wow i was thrown to this weird situation just because of a dream. damm sad lar weih.

A late pic update of denise' & alex's birthday dinner.

Had fun. Gary said phillyse turns him on out loud that..it was hillarious..i shot yy a look and both us cracked up. he meant to say phillyse turns on he's lameness.

i gave all my veges to kath as usual. and as usual, the Sg group up, the caucasians group up, the hallies group up. overall tons of laugh and my cheeks was sore.

been lazy lately. skyped with the KL david the other day, funny dude..we lost touch in first year and then been catching up from where we left off.

Gr8 parents are driving me nuts. ever call ends with tears.

KIMCHEE madness. have been having kimchee for days now..me love.

went to see mairne today. did beading. well we tried.

went bk to bed till 6pm. dreamt i woke up twice and twice in a row, lanny told me that our neighbour next door was staring at him and cause he was freaked out, he ask my older bro to come bk. and i then ask him whats with all the chairs and statue figures facing the window, he says its just to trick our neightbours thinking tht we are in a staring fest. err.. right. ok. then i dreamt i had contacts on and was about to take them off. when reality crash and i woke up, walked to the bathroom and started poking my eyes (have u ever had one of those days where ure visions are 101% and thinking u've the contacts on and u go ard poking ure own flesh) *f.hell. it hurts goddamm bad okay.

as i walk down rundle at 8pm, it would always bring bk the one of the crazy things we did chasing each other on a monday night on an empty street. *sigh i wish i could just forget it.

anyhoos, had korean dinner with denise last night, korean dude at korean restaurant could not even understand simple english of "do u know where the korean groceries are?" epic fail chin.

Feeling lousy. i hate my placement venue. yesterday had been one of the worse days. Nurse was so *no word in the vocab to describe her*. all i can say is tht she was a lousy RN as well. how do you expect me to get the patient's drugs on time when u are MIA all the time. and i'm still a student how issit possible for me to access the drug cabinet to get the drugs. USE your goddamm brain lar woman. she got me doing things tht got me scolded by another RN. i wish we as students can evaluate RNs as well.

so bumped out. spend 2 hours walking under 8 degrees with no gloves and a Naruto batt lantern. it was so cold tht i couldnt even talk or message luke at all. my fingers was frozen. haha.

anyhoos. like i donno how ppl keep distance relationship on going so well. i cant even keep my distance friendship on a steady stand. luke's at USA at the mo. and i'll have to think twice b4 messaging him while he jt keep this up naturally. its morning for me, and night time for him. he text me upon waking and text me agn knowing what time i'll be waking.

o heck! i'll try my best to keep this up.

Man repellent. Somehow for this two weeks, i'm being ignored halfway thru a conversation, having unreplied messages and worse of all was my dinner date with a friend was cancelled on the last minute.

it felt so weird. like a juju vibe has fell upon me and my guy friends seems to be dropping like flies. what the heck happened? while my guy friends are disappearing one by one, all i get is weird guys who wants to take off thier shirts and webcam with me (like two and on counting). why am i always aproached by horny preverts while the decent ones are either chained or gay.

ok since parents doesnt want me to go work at where luke is at now. i aint got no plans. o well happy days, gonna rot.my.bones here.

just 2 days ago, i asked myself, where did everyone go? (Isabel, Sarah, Kathy, Sammy) and why arent we in contact anymore? beside pinky, me and myint. where are the rest?

*sigh. i miss y'all and i donno when i'll be able to meet up with all of u guys again.

(both pics without pinky @.@).when will we take pics like this again?

anyhoos..not only with the kiki girls..i've lost contact with alethea, sammy (both the Hk and korean), lee wen, jasmine and kenneth (and maybe more tht at this time, i cant think of)

overdue pic of fish kissing my legs. was with pinky and marvis :)

i feel pathetic to even check on him occasionally..but hey. i'm just turning a new leaf (trying) to be nice to guys*

ok maybe not. maybe to some guys only. it doesnt apply to Joe. cause i donno him and yes i think 35yo++ guys wanting to webcam are pervy.

wasted precious time watching oth for 5 hours straight. headache. i decided to give travelling with the girls a go this year end. (mind you, i do love the girls to bits, but when it comes to outing,especially travelling in big groups where time is wasted on food, Food and mostly FOOOD! my patience runs out v.fast)

Why whenever someone ask me where i wanna go when i grad, i tell them to where luke is right now and they just assume i'm going out with him?

Cant a girl travels to places where shes curious about? Cant i work at a place where i know tht someone i trust is there? And travels with a friend when not attached?

i feel as tho my blood pressure is going to go offlimits.

first of all, beau is haunting my dreams..not to mention the repeat heartache i have to go thru.

2nd of all, i meant to fin 70% of my media report by today, but i'm still stuck at 60% and its way past bedtime.

3rd of all, i'm having a nightmare dealing with my journal report as jody hasnt replied my email.

4th, zhen just replied me, sish..i am so gonna ignore him like for this week.

5th, my getting a job at brisbane is due this sat and i havent filled out anything yet.

6th, i havent even start this week's ilets p.exam.

7th, i'm dealing with brady brunch tomolo night.

8th, i havent completed my form for the private hospital GNP.

9th, i need to check with muratti to see if the cake is ordered and needs to rush him to get it done by tuesday.

10th, i havent find any articles about smoking awareness and meeting windy and mag at 9am.

He may not be born with good looks. but that doesn’t matter, cause he's got a sweet personality and a kind heart. He makes long days like today bearable.

okay..for those of you u knw me. i have a tendency to forget names. (and a whole lot of other things) but lets just talk about the main one.

yes, the memory part of my brain which is the size of a pea is very much useless when it comes to storing names. ie. i call my housemates by room numbers like (hey, room 3 just finished cooking, lets go cook our dinner)

or nicknames...like Mikallea Anders as MA or Yan yin as YY (yes, i called Yan Yin as yy is cause i kinda have forgottern her name after being introduced in first year...so yy was what i call her up till now) of course i know her full name by now.

and i, at times call my coursemates by the name i tot was their real name. like calling Jessica, Sandra..(i have made a complete fool out of myself for the whole tutorial as i kept addressing Jessica as Sandra and no one knw who the fuck i was talking about)

and like calling this dude by he's friends name...and for the whole conversation, he kept looking at his back not knowing who i was talking to..

Whats worse, is for me to dream tht i called out the wrong name of this guy in my dream infront of everyone and having to deal with the hoots of laughters cause of this silly mistake.

Skyped with luke.

Celebrated Annabel's birthday last night at stag house. Had potterhouse steak and yeah it was yummy. Went to eggless after dinner, had yummy desserts (i crave for my baileymisu). no pics taken as Annabel's got a better camera than mine (those humongous ones). The owner gv me a 10% discount for being a regular.. XD ..

Had dinner with Joyce on friday night. my beef schnitzel was a foot long. i couldnt believe my eyes when my plate was served right infront of me.

Alel send me a song he made..twas funny..i realise he's got this british accent. very hillarious.

i am being ignored overall..made 3 calls and no one is picking up. and why? ppl why? cant be all of u guys from different countries are all busy at the same time right?
am hanging onto Darin's every words recently.- lovely voice.

SI BEH STRESSSSS

wakao. I realise my weekly Diary is kinda packed with tutorials, workshop, 3105's research article, 2717's lung c presentation, booth setup & activity project and 2717's 2 weeks drug and alcohol report, weekly readings, placements, ilets exercise, daily jogs, outing with the girls, drug research homework.

I dint know why. But i then i did it. I signed up for another Ilets exam just to see if i can score a 8 which i think is impossible lar. Such a silly thing to do.

2717 tutor si beh blur i si beh sien while talking to him..as he doesnt know the answers to my questions.

windy tot i was married.

christ called me a sister.

zhen is mia.

ooh. i woke up with my cheeks covered with red spots. no its not measles..as i've had them when i was young..and i went to bed fine last night..all i did was to put on this mask i got from SG (which was the aloe vera mask)..@.@.

so thus, i'm allergic to whatever crap is in tht mask. horrendous day of mine. i'm sooo f.kingly glad Ian isnt working today. *phew

The girls (yy,kath,denise) and guys (lanny and ara) and me..we had dinner at viet/chinese rest last night..food took forever to be prepared. Had a few laughs and shocking news at the table..and whats best is all of our reactions when kath says asian countries makes one of the worse coffee ever tasted...and denise's blur reaction towards aino&gary's break up news.

hang out at my place after dinner..played ace to king where me,lanny and kath got the last K..apuu..i think me and lanny's punishment was a shocker..he's with buttloads of sugar and mine with redwine,vodka,salt,PEANUT BUTTER!!! (yes, thanks to yy for tht)..

but overall there was loads of laughter...i end up messaging tht dude who i was avoiding..(i think i do silly things when sober)..and i was sooooooooooooooooooo glad tht i found out this morning tht i mistyped he's number.

we watched
"the green hornet" cause aravin had too much of a wine and couldn drive home straightaway...and yes, it was predictable from thier reactions tht The Green Hornet sucks bad..cause i've watched it with lanny the last time. its not cause of Jay, its cause of Seth..i HATE seth in any movies i've watched.

o yeah...me and lanny watch Captain America..which i think is ok. cause the dude even tho a wimp b4 the experiment was cute. but lanny says the ending which i've agreed was very disapointing.

I think I’m born with Two left feet..as I’ve been proven to suck at dancing. why? dunno. but i wish i could dance..mamma, why dint u enrolled me to a dancing school? Ballad dancing is for softies.

o well...i can only admire ppl rocking their silly asses at the dance floor while i volunteered unwillingly to keep on eye on their drinks and bags. %$#@!

i had the most awesome dream last night..What a great start to a hectic week. i dreamt tht i was in love with a friend of mine (totally forgotten the lead male actor in my dreams)..but all i know tht there was another guy (who I won’t disclose as its embarrassing...why did he even appeared in my dreams anyway?)..and we were back at my house at miri.

The lead male actor, even tho v.hawt is v.brainless. As he asked me what I’ve wanted for my bd. I told him a key *smilling (of course a key to he’s heart), he cluelessly duplicated 4 of he’s house keys for me. Why 4? Well he says i could have one in each bag. I so dam Kek dao chin. Wth man.

do tell cause i'm not a mind reader.

pls dont blame me when u aint got guts to share whatever is in your heart and mind. i am not at fault here. none of us are.

(handmade bear by my friend @ miri)

ok..can somebody explain why my dreams are all about him lately? its not helpful tht i keep bumping into him in my dreams while in real life i'm avoiding him badly. (as i'm not ready to face he's painfully yummy features)


and maybe its cause i was tired, and the sun sorta blind-sided me, i tot i was going to have a heart attack in btw the Slcenter building and the plaza where i was cornered by some dude tht looks so alike like him. but in a more close observation, this dude i almost bumped into was slimmer n had he's hair dyed..and by god..he looks like a korean popstar as this dude standing infront of me was very good lookin. (amen to tht..i'm not bluffing..he's stunning)


ah...ok..nvm..i can avoid him forever.. i will have to face him one day. someday. but not now.

ok..anyhoos...met joshua at main campus where he gv me a straight one on one about the Tttp 2012. i feel as tho pressure has been added to my shoulders..:( haiya...why is nursing so godamm hard?

back home was nice,fun,comfortable and heartwarming. but the effects i suffer was bad too..from the first day i arrived at miri, i fell sick..and is a bit better now..i suffer mainly from flu, eye infection and had rashes on my arms..not to mention the continious love bites i got from mosqi.

cause i was sick, i hardly went out..cause i sorta spread my flu virus to 4 of my relatives. so yeah..i spend time reading (got thru 6 books), knitting (taught cindy), being taught how to crochet, and being bosco's bear. dint go online much cause my internet line is v.slow.

besides,i travel to kuching and kk. it was fun but very tiring.my last few days in miri was jam packed..ppl sorta flew in to miri to see me..haha..donno why but thanks for the effort ppl.

i met up with pinky at Sg. and myint (we laughed non stop...*sigh, i miss those days where life was so enjoyable)

i cut my hair short.(just as denise and yy wanted me to).

most of all i ate yummy food :D and yes...of course i had my spring onion pancake..*tummy sang upon typing this out*

i've love those times where decisions are made last minute. like booking a flight to kuching on my last few days. and booking a flight to adelaide 5 hours b4 it departs (not for me but for dad, as i told him i hate travelling alone, so he decided to bring me to adelaide himself, so we end up spending the last 2 hours b4 going to the airport shopping for winter cloths for him..haha)

time was short, but i've enjoyed every moment of it. i'm glad to have spend most of my time with my fav aunt.

Zhen being the egomastic, cocky, macho and full of himself dude TOLD me tht i should forget about the guy who i'm currently drooling over and find someone like him. As he thinks my man is fugly and tht i should find someone sexy. errr...i asked him to define sexy. and he says sexy=him.. double ROFL. i cant stand this dude. so damm egomastic.

Zhen thinks the guy tht i like is fugly.

Zhen: Do you have a pic of him?

Me: why not i decribe to you why i like him instead of showing you he's pic.

***(after a few sentences of my beau)***

Zhen: yeah...i can tell he's ugly.

Me: wth? just by what i said about him..all the good points about him and u judge it by what i've said and could tell if he's ugly?

Zhen: of course *beams*...

Make me wanna give him one fat smack on the head.

the last 48 hours was a blur.

went to uni, pack stuffs, watched OTH, packed again, went to see vallery and janice, went to meet kath and aino, caught the bus to city for dinner (AWESOME TIME), had thai food (The meegoreng sucks, i practically played with my food, seperating it to 3 catergories, meat, veges and noodles), went to cocobean(my orea muffin was yuckkie cause it was vegan and organic), went to morning glory (one korean dude was freaking us out, so we rushed out of there), slept in the bus back(with heads bumping into each others), pack somemore, sleep.

next day, had room inspection, drove home, stressed out about unpacking and repacking again, bro helped me out, went for sushi, came bk home and glued my eyes on the computer watching OTH, watched gene simmons at 9pm, and stressed out about packing again till 12am.

today, woke up, feeling all tired, so not looking forward to a 7+ hour flight. my butt is going to hurt reeeeeeal bad.

yeah...ok...so i welcome the humid weather, slow internet speed, unwelcoming comments about my weight and acne scars, the lecture of a lifetime, and cheers to a boring life back home.

u lame.

alel was so lame tonight..i donno whats got into that boy.. i think he's a great cook from the way he describes it. but zhen say he's an awful cook and when asked, he said alel has nvr cooked anything for him...like nowonder lar..who would when zhen is a terrible food critique. say foods bad would having a taste of it. pfff..

anyhoos, i turned my attention to lamb chop (miss those babies back at miri cafe), alel says if i marry him, he would cook me lamb chop till we die young and happy. LOL...rite...i bet zhen would surely have something to say about it, as he's so against me marrying someone other than a chinese. rite. my life not he's.

the moon's red today. couldnt believe i've missed tht.i was driving to clinical at tht time...how could i have missed tht...gahhh....when told by my patient (while holding the 15g, i nearly smacked my forehead and maybe give myself a huge poke when told about the red moon and what i've missed out on)

alel says if i paint the moon blue, he would give me a kiss. yerrrrrr...right...i asked for a spaceship and truck loads of blue paints..

see what i mean by cheesie lines and flirty words? and when was zhen ever like this? see what i mean by me being so comfy when with zhen. he's like a gay friend tht i've nvr had..haha..(not to worry, he's not gay...)

alel says he can make lesbians, straight again...and again...yerrrr right.

Zhen asked me to wait for ip5 or a better phone. o..fine..for once, i go with he's idea. but heck, tht boy better get a good connection.

i heard from aziel tht zhen's coming bk to aussie to work, i tot zhen was jk when he told me tht..(o.O). cause he said he wanted to open a small business store, but i suggest he go help he's parents, and i would support him 101% by going there to buy things from him. he then say what he prefers is me working for him. sheesh..why would i wanna drive to salisbury to work for him anyways, he's dreaming,if he thinks i'll accept tht offer. but azriel asked me to help zhen out as zhen would be an awesome boss. lol.

got another result back...v.happy with my results this sem. hoped to score as many as 3 HDs this sem. hopefully i work my butt for it...getting my 3101 results tomolo, am not confident..just aiming for a pass. if not? a fail? i donno..but heck, nursing 5 is feckingly hard.

Someone's coming back soon :)

but sadly, i dont think i can meet up with him. cause i'll be heck busy with the starting of sem 2 and job applications.

of course its Ethen tht i'm talking about.

Zhen gv himself an english name, ethen. haha..at first, he asked me if it suits him..i told him i prefer Nathan.

and now, azeriel calls him ethen instead of zhen. but o heck...i now know why zhen doesnt have a gurl..cause compared to azeriel, he doesnt sweet talk at all, he's always full of himself. azeriel is so much different, he sweet talks all the time, and he knows what to say to lure a girl. but then zhen doenst use any of tht.

i guess thts why i love hanging with zhen, he doesn’t say cheesy stuffs...(although he can be full of himself) and me and zhen, we can be best buddies cause the way he acts, it’s so natural and unique, i love how bold and confident he could be in front of me) and compared to so many of guys i've talked to, zhen always understands me more.
there. a pic of zhen. he asked me to post a pic of him.

你从来没有道歉.现在，你表现得就好像什么事也没有发生. 但是，你竟然在我心中没有了. 所以，我希望你不要找我. 不要给我打电话. 不要问我，我在哪里. 然后再问我，我在做什么.

ok.. i accidentally jabbed myself with the 15G needle last friday. damm..my finger aches for days.

15G is the orange one (right side), the other one is a 26G which is the tiny one (left side). i always poke my patient with the huge needle. haha. need to, cause its for dialysis, and it hurts like hell man..when i first saw it, i was like "OMFG, what the heck, are u serious?" well cause when i was at the clinic 3 years back, drawing up ppl's blood it was only maybe a 24-23G needle...which isnt tht huge anyways...26G is for me to give insulin..and for those taking any Hep B,C and flu injections...its like a tinsie winsie prick. tht wont make ure injected part aching for days, not like what tht 15G would have done.

ACNE

Well..this year, all my workloads assignment base and have started on my 2nd week of uni. and its ending on 20th this month..while i get an early break, my friends who had their fair share of fun times during the first few weeks of uni, is having their finals starting on the 21st this month.

back to the topic, as u know, when I’m stresses, having to deal with workloads, tutorials ,work placements and volunteering work...my mind is very restless..i feel restless, tired and exhausted all the time, i at times, (especially on thursday) when i think about dealing with the last day of the week, would fall sick and threw up or lost my appetite..(but sadly, I’m still as chubby as a fat lit chick)...thts when my acne blossoms and I’ll have to deal with it with annoyance

i know a lot of my friends asked me to relax, deal with it and eat more fruits and vege...its just tht with all the workloads, i aint got time to take care of acne. My bro said, tht if it wasn’t for my acne, there might be so plenty of opportunities for me. (o..great..how i hate tht faggot)

and i bet once Jessie sees me when i make my facial appointment, i am gonna get the lecture of the lifetime from her

i donno why ppl thing its easy, dealing with ure workload at the same time eating healthy, taking care of ure skin conditions and all. why not show some empathy? or just mind ure own buzz.

i don’t want unnecessary and unpromising products to be sold to me, no and i dont want u ppl buying me all those facial creams and cleansing body pills...no..its my body and life...why interfere? i know u all are concern..but i aint got no time to do any shit works tht u guys have recommended me to do.

i feel like a dying rose, with every call, my heart breaks even more. to choose btw friendship and love.

told zhen my pain again..bugger..i bet he thinks i'm so emo...but heck, he has been emo ever since i know him...and the he replied "Everybody wants happiness. No one wants pain, but how can you make a rainbow without a little rain?"~ he got tht off a friend.

chatting with zhen really brighterns up my day...such a funny man with a very thick attitude. he just got bk from SH and Hangzou. he sended me some pics and asked me pick one for he's dp.

he kept saying tht he's quite shuai, i agreed and told him my nose just grew one cm. i got him to admit tht he was gay even tho he's not and told him he could borrow my dresses and hairpins. lol...

we were so bored tht both decided to go to our old routine, he used to say "Tell me something new" or "i wanna know your secrets" over the phone..today, i told one i bet non of my friends knew. and he think its hillarious cause it doesnt suit me at all. yah. o well..it was history and out of misery. :P

he, on the other hand, doesnt have much secrets at all, he tells me what i already know. he's so predictable.

vivid memories about my dream boy. met him at the airport, and the rest is history.
a new phone? i was asked to get the new iphone 4 in white by a few friends of mine. tempted by then my fingers arent very sensitive to touch screens, even in clinical placement where those new dialysis machines are touch screens and i'm having quite a lot of touble with it..grrrr... but on the bright side, nokia touch screens nvr fails to disappoint me...i can used touch screen products from nokia.. :) so some of em suggested n8 for me. N8 ?!? Euiii...its fugly...why not Nokia c7 you say? o..well its cause both my parents are using it..one is rose gold, and another one in silver..it was suppose to be thier so call 'couple phones'...OMGosh..like no way am i to butt in...but tempting too..cause i love the games in Nokia c7..lol.

maybe i'm just too stressed out, i dreamt tht me and guy A (i dare not say the name) were a thing, he came bk to miri from work, and went to aunt Julie's for dinner with me and my family. had tons of happy moments and he stayed over at my home with my parents at home. err...whatthe heck? the thing is he was so different in my dream, not the skinny twig tht he is, he's a bit better looking with meat, and he cut off the fumachoo look :D for me. haha..(i donno, but in real life, he says he has already done tht for me)

and then yesterday, i dreamt of another dude, guy B (again, i prefer to keep my boy a secret), this time, we went back to the scene where we had the candle light dinner. but then i was sitted next to him, and my evening was spoiled cause he's dovey couple friends decided to join us, and u know what a mood spoiler it is when all u wanted to do is say cheesie lines to your beau but he's friend's just right infront of you with all ears on you and your beau's conversation..how annoying. (but i assure you, in real life, we did end up bumping into he's friends, he's friends wanted to take a pic of us while i kept saying NO, cause i felt very bloated after having the lobster thermidor)

so...lets see whose the 3rd dude in my dreams tonight.

Update~ i really love jason now..even tho he calls me poochop, he's freakingly awesome...CINDY!!, my friend found me this nice shop tht sells macarons.
( http://www.pastille.com.au/ ) go check it out, and tell me what u like :D

when i tell him he's awesome.

he replied: 'I'm just trying to be caring to make sure poo tang does her essay as i dont want her to fail.'

ouch! had a bubu while at placement, my nails was torned in half. yeah, i should have clipped off my long nails instead of waiting for accidents like this to happen. i was having a hard time trying to get things done without wincing in pain.

anyhoos..i get to cannulate someone this week with a 16' g needle size.

all three of these cannot be compare to a 16 g needle..they are all too small as a 16'g needle is 10-12 times bigger in size then these..i'll try to take a pic of a 16' g needle if i can.

SLACKING! assignments due tomorrow, and i'm youtubing, blogging and chating, jason says if i dont get my butt on doing my assignment, he's gonna take the bus, knock on unit 68, and either tickle me crazy, slap my ass or take away all my oreo supplies.

i'm going blind by looking at guy's jewel bags for 6 hours now. stupid assignment needs me to find references to my statement of why i think the given info was wrong, i've been watching videos, looking at pictures, reading on guy's coin purse.

i think its cause i've been staring at the computer screen for so long, i mistaken a horse's penis thinking it was a male's, u cannot imagine my disbelieve, i kept looking at it thinking, DUDE! this guy is so hairy (cause the picture was not clear and in black and white)...LOL.

4 assignments due next week. :/ i cant even sleep soundly, too stressed, eyes twitch, lost my appetite and have been nauseous, got bitten by a bug, and now, a small part of my left leg is swollen ,inflammed, warm and very goddam itchy...i tot it was a mosquito, but bites from a mosqi would not left me with very red and inflammed patch which lasted 5 days. o well, life goes on..

going out with janice in an hour..haha..destress! i'm thinking of going to the crystal,candles and scent shop to get stress releasing junks. i donno if they work, but then i'll just give them a try.

I’m on a consistent down fall. I donno how much more i could take of this. i just wish i was dead. as i don’t think my mind, body and soul could take it if this happens again. How did i my life end up like this? i'm mentally exhausted.

self machine. i was given a jade necklace this afternoon, was asked to wear it. so not to insult the giver, i wore it. but deep down i nvr like jade stones.

clinical went well.i'm just exhausted. was invited to carol's house for tea after clinical.

the Story of Red.

RED which i've been talking about for the past week has been sitting at the garage for almost a week now. and yes, Red, is my very own car.

it all started 3 weeks ago, when dad went and pick me up from the workplacement, and he thinks the alley is dark and dangerous and insist getting me a car.

went to ordered one, got insurance done, everything under my name. At last, last wednesday, my car arrived. Upon getting it, i was told, its my own car now, i have control of who should be behind the wheels.

i've regreted getting the car as mum kept using it against me, dad intent to make me happy over what happened last dec, in the end, i end up unhappy cause i feel like i'm being push ard to do things because dad got me this car.

lanny said i emo, i get a car, he emo..he got nth..so i should be thankful.. but if i have known tht this car is gonna get me into so much arguements, i would have said NO.

he asked: What do you think of me in person? Would you be interested in me?

after careful consideration on planning a very simple and yet, non insulting answer, with tons of smileys, and lols.

he concluded that i Am indeed interested in him.

/what the phook. i should have just answered NO instead of 3 lines of explanantion. and that might have just get the message across right.

(easter egg from ursula, its red again to help me with the red theme thats been going on for 2 weeks now...i'll keep u update on Red. cause johnny needs to fix something on it)

wow. hardly knew she was there all along.

u know me, i am those tht only check the latest updates on fb upon waking up. i load only the first page and thats it..the trouble of going thru to view everyone's updates. so in the end, i always get the last of the gossip juice. for example, a friend of mine was engaged since monkey ages, everyone has congratulated her, and after what? 6-7 months, i then found out about it? *sad and yet true.

another example, a very good old mate of mine added me (as he quote like 4-5 years ago on msn) and last night, out of the blues, he nudge me and all i can think of is when have i added him. i dont view the list but just type out their name in the search box to chat with em. the only ones i know online are the ones that sign in after me, as the annoying "ding" sound would ring thru my speakers while i'm either writing essays or watching a movie.

i hate it when i conversate with a guy friend, and the topic change to me talking about a dude, and he wont stop questioning

1. who is he?



2. is he your ex?



3. a future bf?



4. someone from uni?



5. where did u met him?



6. where is he from?



7. do u fancy him?

and when tht 'dude' did something tht he knows that i dont like,

1. i tot u hated that?



2. why did he do that?



3. so, he gets to do that?



4. is he the only one with an exception?

in the end,

1. so, are u gonna meet this dude?



2. what about the other one? tht u says creeps you out.damm...nosy friends are annoying. And this aint the first time.

went out with yy and ara today. i went to a book expo event and got 4 books just for $16. Am so DARN happy.

okay..if everything goes well, its would be arriving this wed, and to continue the arrival of my 'stuff', i started buying things in red.

red book to go with it this has got red in it, a red summer beachbagcause winter is just 2 months away, mum got me a red thermo flask, and i got myself a red pen...everything tht goes well with my red 'stuff' :)

Parents invest their money on us.

Spoil us rotten, feed us plenty, buy our happiness.

Off we go, study our ass off to get as many HD or D just to account for our yearly achievements.

Parents stress=Children stress.

I guess, i cannot be invested this year, i cannot concentrate in any of my work. i feel like such a failure. :'( i dont think i can get a single D or HD this year.

since when have i become the mum instead?

8:00am, woke up, found mum texting dad at the tv room.

9:00am, asked mum to get ready, as i need to go make an appointment for car servicing. (and she took sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long just to get herself all ready) its something tht i used to do, i dressed and doll for a very long time while mum have to wait downstairs with the car keys.

10.00am, drove the car, while mum sat at the back texting dad. its something tht i used to do when i was texting nick.

11.00am, drove to subways, parked the car, turned ard, asking mum if she wants anything from subways, she said no, i just left her in the car while i get lunch. its what mum used to do when i'm not hungry on a sat, she would get some bread from Hot cross bun and i'll always wait in the car, texting.

12.00pm, mum said she cant finished her sausage roll and wanted to chuck it into the bin, while i'm still having my lunch. i have always chucked the tapao noodles on a non schooling day bk in miri.

2.00pm, mum asked if we could go shopping, and i declined saying i've got tons of workloads to do, plus i'm lazy to drive. this is the exact same words tht i used to say to mum and mum would reply tht shes lazy to drive me out.

3.00pm, mum's bored, so she took a nap. i used to do this on a sat afternoon.

5.00pm, mum rang her friends and just chat mindlessly. which is what i used to do, i used to ring bu, or myint and talk like crazy.

8.00pm, while praying, dad texted mum, she got distracted and instead of praying, she texted the whole way thru praying time. which was what i was quite famous for bk in those days.

9.00pm, mum told me shes gonna try and read/study some christian thing. and then the next thing i know is tht she wasnt studying, she was texting. i used to sneak a couple of text to this guy while mum was infront of me studying and all i cant concentrate on what i'm suppose to study for tht night.

12.ooam, while going off to bed, i caught mum texting dad instead of sleeping. and i was trying to go to bed with her, texting dad till 1am. which was what i used to do, i always sneak in some text to someone b4 i sleep.

i conclude, my day has been turned upside down..since when have i become the mature old woman while mum acts like a sneaky teenager..the different is tht i dont share out what i say to my guy whereas mum just tell me what dad says and giggle.

In preparation for next week, everything's gotta be red. red nails, red lip gloss,red bag, red lipstick case.

Sociology's topic was on obesity. M.hall was asking us whats the difference btw food taken culturally. I've learned that in india, some certain rice could lead to type 1 diabetes. and as for caucasians here, there state tht they limit the portion of the food taken by their kids. or was asked to finish their food when young.

upon asking me, the only Malaysian, i told them i hated food when i was young. (shock No.1). and in order to get food into me, mum had to force feed me till i was quite old (like maybe 9yold; i think) (shock No. 2). up until 10 years old and to my teenage age, when i dont feel like eating, i would have a small portion of rice and a glass of water for dinner (shock No.3). i would throw up when i eat upon waking up (shock No. 4). haha...yeah..they conclude tht i was very different.

plus...while at aussie, i was taught to throw food away when i cannot finish my food and i would play with my food then up until last year, i started cooking. Of course, Aussie food, was too yummy and tht i gained 3-4 kilos since 2009. my face's meaty and chubby now..BUT to compare with first year, i could lift up my patients easily out of the chair without huffing and puffing.

so stressed out. i donno what i'm suppose to write for the upcoming assignment. i'm stuck. how? in the end, i started painting my nails (O.O) i dont mind wasting time in that, as u see, even my tutors have got beautiful pedicured nails. mine's an embarrassement. painted blood red.

waiting for it to dry out..i was flipping my feet like crazy..cause 3 coats could have easily been scraped away.

next's week the mid term break...even in mid term break, i still need to go to the uni to attend 3101. Fking hell. waste my time nia. watched this video on obesity during 3013..endless foul words and unsessored female body parts..and it was shown while i was sitting to this dude. how embarrassing.

Honey, he is a guy, he aint suppose to be yummy!

Whoopsie daisy...when talking to shaunne, i accidentally, typed, 'O, he's name's Ian yum'

Shaunne tot tht i think Ian's yummy..lol...what the heck...i donno how did my whats app change tht into yum. its Ian yun.

well actually, i donno whats my 3101 groupmate's name is..i'll just call her shaunne..cause she looks like a shaunne. :p

anyhoos..workshop was fun..we kept saying things like wanting to steal the dummie's hand and bring it to pubcrawl..and i teased shaunne till bits and pieces...cause she's gonna drown herself with booze and i kept pointing out what booze could do to her liver. Kwa was just enjoying the show of two 20 yolds going crazy with AnP. we kept poking, probing, dislocating the dummies, arms, body parts and so,we sat on the bed (like best buddies on sleepovers) and talked for ages till the tutor came. Shared tons of inside jokes and Kwa had to watch in dismay as we both act like her daughter. Did acid/alkali resp/metabolic excercise, me and shaunne was just shooting answers and kwa (onced again, have to ask us to SLOW down)..in the end, shaunna jokes tht we should just be docs instead..and when asked about abdo distension, i had a silly idea of poking the pt's flesh with a needle. (O.O)

oo...ooo..ooo...among all i got a GOLDEN STAR from my tutor...cause our tutor was asking everyone on antibiotic IV infusion, and among all, i got the right answer..which to me was odd, considering everyone has done clinical, they ought to know how to infuse antibiotics. As i explained it over and over again, clamping wasnt nessesary..but my opinion falls into death ears as everyone tot they we right to clamp the linings.