comm'on ppl...go dwld Whatsapp..u dont need no iphone to use tht application...reuben told me tht u can also dwld it if ure using Nokia or blackberry...not sure about other phones tho..i rmber hearing about this long ago when my bro started using iphone...and now i got a few friends hooking up with this application...just last night, i chatted with luke till i fell asleep..@.@. ooo..hunnnie!!!! i'm sowreee i fell asleep..so i couldnt reply you..haha.

i donno when it has started...but i love rock music more than ever..with a mixed of those 80's country musics...its so sooothing to the heart.

i guess, i'll have to thank OTH for this...and plus, denise with it...i am inlove with rock music...plus, the cure rocks ass. and now interpol has just been added to the list..:)

with all the support and help..i am so grateful for the some of the guy friends in my life..little mickey made my day yesterday...he reminded me (on some of our past) that both of us used to sneak out to the lake just at where we went to camp to meet each other..(something so precious and yet i cant even rmber)

and kev, knowing tht its been hard for me made sure tht he works hard enuf to earn some extras just to come over to see me. its not nessesary but he insisted, so tht i wont be bored during uni breaks.

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with luke, whose always there for me..gosh...he's awesome.

anyhoos..i'm feeling better, no more rebellious attempts to find ways to scar my body.

I dreamt that i worked as an office girl (my dream job, cause of the ironed crisp white blouse i get to wear)..anyhoos...and then got myself a house at this dull place with Zhen as my next door neighbour. Instead of being a businessman, he was a professional photographer (carrying that huge device everywhere he goes, wearing a striped shirt ,y-suspenders, a brown short pant and those wool fedora hats (almost like what those Korean males would wear). And of course, days with him was funny and he was lame too...and weird, he won’t stop snapping pics of my house telling me it was just practice, shrugging like it’s no big deal. Whats worse, i donno why this chick (i really don’t like her as she annoys me) was at my house and flirting big time with zhen, i wanted to whack her good. For the blind friend of mine is falling for her charms.

Thats when i told him i was pea green and woke up,..i went online, and there is was, a message from Zhen. Haha

this reminds me of something zhen said to me 2 years bk,

zhen: i dreamt about u last night.

me: o? what was it about.

zhen: not sure about the details, but all i know it tht it was a crazy one.

There is just two names i swore to Denise tht i will nvr ever wanna get hooked up with. it’s so bad tht i feel like i am cursed to nvr be happy with mens who are named after these two particular Hebrew names.

And so for today, while I was shopping for sun blocks and meds for lanny, I came across a very cute pharmacist...and well, wadduknow..Surprise surprise!! He’s name is one of those that i swore one of the gods up there jinx my life with....WHY?! o WHY?! Am i usually attracted to guys who are named * and *.

At least the tackiest I’ve been introduced to was Morgan for a guy. I tot Morgan was a girl..

Was reminded that CNY is in 2 weeks time. i myself nvr keep track on the days and dates.

Not in the NY mood..there’s no street deco’s to remind me on the very special occasion, no fire crackers, no yummy snacks, cookies, cakes or etc. Boy, this is dull.

So in conclusion, i decided (hopefully, parents allow) to not celebrate cny this year, cause there’s no point to it as i myself (not until a few hrs ago) don’t even bother to rmber when is the exact date. I rather just stay at Adelaide and cook something special for the occasion. And if not, maybe just go there on the 2nd week of Feb. so that i can meet up with Nancy, bu and the 2 Mickeys.

Janice came over and stayed for the night. She cooked dinner while I made chocolate Oreos. :) was superb, watched 'remember me' after dinner and had tons of catching up since last dec.

Told her about that Skype guy, she also laughed at what he wrote (see...like seriously...see what i mean, this guy is really a weird one...if janice thinks so, tht means its beyond compare cause she hardly criticise on others)

While watching the movie, Janice cant stop complaining about Robert pat’s hair, saying it looks like a bird’s nest, while I can’t stop complaining about adian’s hair saying it looks like rolled up noodles.

Lanny is coming bk tonight, with scabies...(eyes rolling, o..GREAT..this is just what i need, more bugs in the house)...i am so freaked out i disinfect most the sheets and carpets in the house.

Had lunch with Simon and Janice at Outback Jack. When Simon said tht he is going to sg and then hk tonight, i dialed dad's number and annoy him like hell (i am so pissed off, like i said b4, when someone says things like they are going back to Sg, HK, or malaysia...My anger rises with a twist of fustration)

even with the GPS dad got me, i still got myself lost in main north road..wth man...whats wrong with me...i just did what i do best just now which is to follow the car infront of me...thank goodness, i had more than 30 mins to spare to help me browse for wools in spotlight.

i'm getting pretty lazy day by day, even cancel a dinner invitation from reuben to eastern garden. (O.O) gosh..i just canceled on good yummy yum yums.

to make up for it, i might ask him out on steam boat at mings. :)

i love how the house smells now :D got a new bottle of perfume and since i dint get the chance to use it, i sprayed it all over the house. out of boredom i guess. *shrugs.

Cindy, rmber when i drove u to the city at adelaide, and u told me tht u like Jacarandas...well..i've got 2 pretty pics for you.

anyhoos, got my hair cut at Justcuts this morning, it looks great. love how smooth my hair is now without the annoying dry ends.

Had an AWESOME day..even tho it started pouring from the moment i walked out of the house ard 8.30am till 7pm today. what a cold and sad summer. but then i aint complaining, cause i get to wear my coats and very comfy t-shirts to sleep. :)

i went to uni today to get a head start of info for my up coming ilets, i was told by simon (this guy i met there) tht i need not take it cause i could have sat for OET instead, but then i paid everything. so yeah, sitting for the real one next sat.

the practice exam started with writing (which, sadly is my worst enermy) but then got amazing marks from Jermal (my 2103 tutor, who was very impressed with my essay :D , i've always liked this funny man who makes 2103 very enjoyable..so getting a good remark from him, made my day)

plus, when Amanda muller, wanted us to change partners, going from bill (a nursing lecturer)..i got simon (a shanghai, pre-registeration dude, who was also a very nice guy, altho, i do find it hard to understand him a bit, but heck, he's very fun to talk to, very optimistic, very polite, understanding..o...lets not forget, very cute. LOL)

and then i went to marion to shop for some yum yums, got bk home and got my police clearance checked out (its like i could hear the angels in the sky singing alleluia).

Zhen left for hk agn.

I tot I might see him agn in 3 weeks time, but then the day b4 he left, he said something about getting a job there and if he's offer is accepted, he might not come bk and continue he's masters degree at hku. :'( damm sad lar wieh...i know i'm mostly to be blame...cause i kept declining the offer to go out with him (cause i tot i might see him again and plus, i'm damm lazy to hang ard the city)...the final offer tht i declined was the hk trip...i really cant go, whats more i cant even go bk Miri, and he expects me to take a flight with him on the 3rd to hk...

no more sleepy voice, no more lame jokes, no more 'Kelly or crazy suki jokes', no more leng zai/leng lui point outs, no more supporting comments and etc. all because i have experienced this b4, once someone close to me leaves, out friendship is partially torn as I’m bad at keeping contact. I am and have been trying okay..SOME of u guys aren’t trying hard enuf...

I've made a deal to go hk this coming dec (cause zhen said he wants to take me to this fantastic japanese restaurant, shopping, wants me to experience having fantastic yum yums at ard 2-4am in the morning) i told dad..and he said if i go to hk, i cant go bk to Miri..wth?! why make me choose??? Zhen, Sammy, Ming, jack, Gary, Collin VS my friends and family at Miri. Of course dad would ask me to choose...all my friends in hk are guys well except for Ming Ming. I could add Teresa and angie in it, but then I’m not close to them.

just arrived at Adelaide not long ago...had 2 hrs of sleep last night as I have nightmares continuously..It was something to do with the 'I shouldn’t be alive' TV shows...about plane crash and survivals...i felt nauseas after tht...

I long to receive my police clearance but after 7 godamm weeks, the form and the person involved with it SKL me...very damm juak...even Pauline ask where I got all my patience from...as if it was her, she would be screaming..I’m so close to crashing myself.

Got myself a windows 7 yesterday...still trying to get use to it...i think my windows vista was way better than windows 7...i dont even know how to get ard with W7.

him= weirdo..

even zhen asked what he was raving about. why is he getting all pissy about such a small matter. i myself donno what was going on also...

first off he wanted to sent me his pic, i told him just one cause i was using my bro's computer. thn after looking at it...all i can say is ok, yeap..cool. he then ask me if i notice anything different about him from the first pic he sent me a few weeks ago..i dont think there is so i said no. he then gives signals tht he's upset..so i said

Me: what should i notice? the hair? ure fashion(i said fashion cause he's pm was something to do with fashion)

He: ok, nvm...i'm mad at you.

like double wth...what did i say this time? what i wrote was seriously not an insult..i really wanna know whats diff about him in the recent pic..he then say things like i've hurt he's feelings. and then something about him not being good looking at tht pic..and tht i should have lied saying things like nice background, ask where he's at (which is obvious , the hotel lobby)...what the heck man...what does this dude want from me?...

2o11, what am i looking forward to?

can perth be anymore hotter???? i'm melting off like the frozen grapes on the table. 40 degrees for a few days on going..

dinner at billy's with cousins and bros. missed having some LALAs..damm...i was so annoyed by the dull pain in my tummy, couldnt even enjoy dinner and have milk tea...while in the car playing some bluetoothed songs from my phone...blasting the speakers..and thn out of the blues, mickey rang me..and over the silent pin dropping moment, everyone was asking what/ whoses tht..and everyone turned to me...gosh...how embarrasing to have a friend ringing you, and the call got bluetoothed to the car speakers and everyone can hear him greeting me. damm..and then, lanny couldnt stop teasing me tell others it was zhen while fred made some kissing noise...

when i arrive at perth that day, i saw this on my table, thinking its a tissue box, i ignored it..and when i wanted some tissue, i flip and toss the box till i the winnie the pooh thinggy fell offseeeeeeeeeeee...to futher my inspection, cause the god damm thing was hard to open, i realise its actually aphone...(=.=)"..like seriously, double 'wth'...

dad got this for me cause he saw this chick in SH using it..and then he went to the shop, rang me *like what i wrote in one of the post* asking if i wanted a hello kitty phone and when i said no,anna got the hello kitty one while dad got me winnie the pooh.

o well..i'm planning to change my plan to optus next year, cause using 3 here in perth sucks bad...so bro asked his friend about iphone 4 for me..but i seriously cannot..i mean it cannot use touch screens..i suck at it bad...like some of the stuff at our house is touch screen, i find it hard to get ard, cause somehow, touch screens doesnt like me at all..i press the stove button till my fingers bruise and the god damm thing would not even heat up the wok..i set up some numbers at home, and i keep pressing the wrong number...eish...very damm jiok...but i wont mind getting iphone 4 for the games.. :P...

ok...lets see ya...at first, he ignored me for two weeks, i was "advice" to go apologized for whatever i said to him...so i did..even tho i think its all a misunderstanding cause of the lack of emotions that i can show while replying him on instant messaging...fine..whatever..He did say honestly tht he was quite upset with what i said to him...fine..i accept and apologized for it..

and now..he became the same old same old with the constant teasing like *heck buddy, i donno u well and u donno me well and what’s with the teasing?!? and now he is asking so much from me..and i keep thinking to myself why all these type of non sense happens to me sooo often? first the nonsense hk guy..now this??

I don’t like how he gets so upset all the time when zhen is ard me. Right now at this point, i can say tht i don’t mind making him angry agn just so that i can avoid talking to him in the future. Plus i donno why he think theres something going on btw us when i have no heart for him at all. Why cant we just be friends?

i'm stronger than you, i can fight this off without a doc's advice and some medication..let the immune system kicks in :)

how bored...u imagine perth to be super mega awesome..but heck its even worse than adelaide..well at least fred's got tons of gaming device tht i can play with...been so hooked with guitar hero trio with fred as the drummer,lanny as the guitarist, me as the singer...hah!! i set the highest record..hai bu gao xing..

i love my new house, but my room sucks bad, no table, no mirror at least the bed is comfy..wind has been pretty strong here at night...if i do go out, lanny said i might be blown away. heh..

cause of my mega sickness, i have no appetite to eat yummilicious food. even lanny said my tummy shrank...haha..

i wanna go crabbing..but no one wants to take me there..(0.O)..instead they wanna bring me to the casino..

will soon meet my mickey mouse as he's just busy working and with church and when he's free, he would drive me out...yay!!!

this was taken before exams..me and Janice went to kwik sticks...when i saw the portion of food, i couldn’t stop laughing...Janice ordered salt and pepper calamari and i ordered green curry..i wont be bother with finishing up, but janice helped have a big portion of the curry. :)

i realise i wont be having the same class as janice next year.. :( *sad..and whats more, shes not staying at the housing...

went to meet janice for lunch. got myself another book.

zhen graduated today...yay!!! i was at the city at tht time..but thn i dare not go there..cause to be face to face with his parents might draw an awkward conversation.

rundle was pack with heaps and heaps of ppl..everyone is doing the last min shopping.

agn, i up for the last min packing. i donno where this lazy bug came from..

ok...my 2nd christmas present is done for..i spend about 12 hrs on the 600 pages book. now what? back to square one..i need another book...the thing about me reading some made up fantasy is tht i often wish that my life is like that too.. easy breezy and dreamy.

2 nights ago, i had another dream of bk home..i dreamt tht i went to visit granny in her old house. weird as it is as she doesnt live there anymore.. and whats weird, we had a party there where i met this long lost friend of mine, a friend i havent talked to for 11 years.

as for last night, i dream of this peaceful setting in life where i had him, he brought me chocolate donuts (which i have no idea why) he was suddenly the real life Дмитрий that i've dreamt about..which was too good to be true, how can it be, the guy..in adelaide...what about his job/life and love ones he left behind just to be here?..my silly mind must have been too caught up with the recent book i read..i blame the silly imaginations i have on the barbie and ken life.

In real life, when you are in love, the world seems brighter in your eyes. in my dream, the room was so bright but not too bright to hurt my eyes and the aura i got was so colourful and everyone was in a happy state of mind.

PAIN.

Been having this annoying dull pain on the lower right side of my ribcage..Stomach? Liver? Not sure..but have been having this type of pain for a month now..Recently, it has gotten so bad tht i would feel very nauseated...i donno whats wrong and the irrational part of my brain thinks i should just let it glide thru till next year, cause for once i'm lazy to go to the doc..plus, with this pain, i dont think i can drive ard..cause last Friday, i had the pain in the bus, i can say it wasnt pleasant..how would you feel sitting next to someone whose gonna barf any min and you cant do anything about it. bad experience.