just 2 days ago, i asked myself, where did everyone go? (Isabel, Sarah, Kathy, Sammy) and why arent we in contact anymore? beside pinky, me and myint. where are the rest?

*sigh. i miss y'all and i donno when i'll be able to meet up with all of u guys again.

(both pics without pinky @.@).when will we take pics like this again?

anyhoos..not only with the kiki girls..i've lost contact with alethea, sammy (both the Hk and korean), lee wen, jasmine and kenneth (and maybe more tht at this time, i cant think of)

overdue pic of fish kissing my legs. was with pinky and marvis :)

i feel pathetic to even check on him occasionally..but hey. i'm just turning a new leaf (trying) to be nice to guys*

ok maybe not. maybe to some guys only. it doesnt apply to Joe. cause i donno him and yes i think 35yo++ guys wanting to webcam are pervy.

wasted precious time watching oth for 5 hours straight. headache. i decided to give travelling with the girls a go this year end. (mind you, i do love the girls to bits, but when it comes to outing,especially travelling in big groups where time is wasted on food, Food and mostly FOOOD! my patience runs out v.fast)

Why whenever someone ask me where i wanna go when i grad, i tell them to where luke is right now and they just assume i'm going out with him?

Cant a girl travels to places where shes curious about? Cant i work at a place where i know tht someone i trust is there? And travels with a friend when not attached?

i feel as tho my blood pressure is going to go offlimits.

first of all, beau is haunting my dreams..not to mention the repeat heartache i have to go thru.

2nd of all, i meant to fin 70% of my media report by today, but i'm still stuck at 60% and its way past bedtime.

3rd of all, i'm having a nightmare dealing with my journal report as jody hasnt replied my email.

4th, zhen just replied me, sish..i am so gonna ignore him like for this week.

5th, my getting a job at brisbane is due this sat and i havent filled out anything yet.

6th, i havent even start this week's ilets p.exam.

7th, i'm dealing with brady brunch tomolo night.

8th, i havent completed my form for the private hospital GNP.

9th, i need to check with muratti to see if the cake is ordered and needs to rush him to get it done by tuesday.

10th, i havent find any articles about smoking awareness and meeting windy and mag at 9am.

He may not be born with good looks. but that doesn’t matter, cause he's got a sweet personality and a kind heart. He makes long days like today bearable.

okay..for those of you u knw me. i have a tendency to forget names. (and a whole lot of other things) but lets just talk about the main one.

yes, the memory part of my brain which is the size of a pea is very much useless when it comes to storing names. ie. i call my housemates by room numbers like (hey, room 3 just finished cooking, lets go cook our dinner)

or nicknames...like Mikallea Anders as MA or Yan yin as YY (yes, i called Yan Yin as yy is cause i kinda have forgottern her name after being introduced in first year...so yy was what i call her up till now) of course i know her full name by now.

and i, at times call my coursemates by the name i tot was their real name. like calling Jessica, Sandra..(i have made a complete fool out of myself for the whole tutorial as i kept addressing Jessica as Sandra and no one knw who the fuck i was talking about)

and like calling this dude by he's friends name...and for the whole conversation, he kept looking at his back not knowing who i was talking to..

Whats worse, is for me to dream tht i called out the wrong name of this guy in my dream infront of everyone and having to deal with the hoots of laughters cause of this silly mistake.

Skyped with luke.

Celebrated Annabel's birthday last night at stag house. Had potterhouse steak and yeah it was yummy. Went to eggless after dinner, had yummy desserts (i crave for my baileymisu). no pics taken as Annabel's got a better camera than mine (those humongous ones). The owner gv me a 10% discount for being a regular.. XD ..

Had dinner with Joyce on friday night. my beef schnitzel was a foot long. i couldnt believe my eyes when my plate was served right infront of me.

Alel send me a song he made..twas funny..i realise he's got this british accent. very hillarious.

i am being ignored overall..made 3 calls and no one is picking up. and why? ppl why? cant be all of u guys from different countries are all busy at the same time right?
am hanging onto Darin's every words recently.- lovely voice.

SI BEH STRESSSSS

wakao. I realise my weekly Diary is kinda packed with tutorials, workshop, 3105's research article, 2717's lung c presentation, booth setup & activity project and 2717's 2 weeks drug and alcohol report, weekly readings, placements, ilets exercise, daily jogs, outing with the girls, drug research homework.

I dint know why. But i then i did it. I signed up for another Ilets exam just to see if i can score a 8 which i think is impossible lar. Such a silly thing to do.

2717 tutor si beh blur i si beh sien while talking to him..as he doesnt know the answers to my questions.

windy tot i was married.

christ called me a sister.

zhen is mia.

ooh. i woke up with my cheeks covered with red spots. no its not measles..as i've had them when i was young..and i went to bed fine last night..all i did was to put on this mask i got from SG (which was the aloe vera mask)..@.@.

so thus, i'm allergic to whatever crap is in tht mask. horrendous day of mine. i'm sooo f.kingly glad Ian isnt working today. *phew

The girls (yy,kath,denise) and guys (lanny and ara) and me..we had dinner at viet/chinese rest last night..food took forever to be prepared. Had a few laughs and shocking news at the table..and whats best is all of our reactions when kath says asian countries makes one of the worse coffee ever tasted...and denise's blur reaction towards aino&gary's break up news.

hang out at my place after dinner..played ace to king where me,lanny and kath got the last K..apuu..i think me and lanny's punishment was a shocker..he's with buttloads of sugar and mine with redwine,vodka,salt,PEANUT BUTTER!!! (yes, thanks to yy for tht)..

but overall there was loads of laughter...i end up messaging tht dude who i was avoiding..(i think i do silly things when sober)..and i was sooooooooooooooooooo glad tht i found out this morning tht i mistyped he's number.

we watched
"the green hornet" cause aravin had too much of a wine and couldn drive home straightaway...and yes, it was predictable from thier reactions tht The Green Hornet sucks bad..cause i've watched it with lanny the last time. its not cause of Jay, its cause of Seth..i HATE seth in any movies i've watched.

o yeah...me and lanny watch Captain America..which i think is ok. cause the dude even tho a wimp b4 the experiment was cute. but lanny says the ending which i've agreed was very disapointing.

I think I’m born with Two left feet..as I’ve been proven to suck at dancing. why? dunno. but i wish i could dance..mamma, why dint u enrolled me to a dancing school? Ballad dancing is for softies.

o well...i can only admire ppl rocking their silly asses at the dance floor while i volunteered unwillingly to keep on eye on their drinks and bags. %$#@!

i had the most awesome dream last night..What a great start to a hectic week. i dreamt tht i was in love with a friend of mine (totally forgotten the lead male actor in my dreams)..but all i know tht there was another guy (who I won’t disclose as its embarrassing...why did he even appeared in my dreams anyway?)..and we were back at my house at miri.

The lead male actor, even tho v.hawt is v.brainless. As he asked me what I’ve wanted for my bd. I told him a key *smilling (of course a key to he’s heart), he cluelessly duplicated 4 of he’s house keys for me. Why 4? Well he says i could have one in each bag. I so dam Kek dao chin. Wth man.

do tell cause i'm not a mind reader.

pls dont blame me when u aint got guts to share whatever is in your heart and mind. i am not at fault here. none of us are.

(handmade bear by my friend @ miri)

ok..can somebody explain why my dreams are all about him lately? its not helpful tht i keep bumping into him in my dreams while in real life i'm avoiding him badly. (as i'm not ready to face he's painfully yummy features)


and maybe its cause i was tired, and the sun sorta blind-sided me, i tot i was going to have a heart attack in btw the Slcenter building and the plaza where i was cornered by some dude tht looks so alike like him. but in a more close observation, this dude i almost bumped into was slimmer n had he's hair dyed..and by god..he looks like a korean popstar as this dude standing infront of me was very good lookin. (amen to tht..i'm not bluffing..he's stunning)


ah...ok..nvm..i can avoid him forever.. i will have to face him one day. someday. but not now.

ok..anyhoos...met joshua at main campus where he gv me a straight one on one about the Tttp 2012. i feel as tho pressure has been added to my shoulders..:( haiya...why is nursing so godamm hard?

back home was nice,fun,comfortable and heartwarming. but the effects i suffer was bad too..from the first day i arrived at miri, i fell sick..and is a bit better now..i suffer mainly from flu, eye infection and had rashes on my arms..not to mention the continious love bites i got from mosqi.

cause i was sick, i hardly went out..cause i sorta spread my flu virus to 4 of my relatives. so yeah..i spend time reading (got thru 6 books), knitting (taught cindy), being taught how to crochet, and being bosco's bear. dint go online much cause my internet line is v.slow.

besides,i travel to kuching and kk. it was fun but very tiring.my last few days in miri was jam packed..ppl sorta flew in to miri to see me..haha..donno why but thanks for the effort ppl.

i met up with pinky at Sg. and myint (we laughed non stop...*sigh, i miss those days where life was so enjoyable)

i cut my hair short.(just as denise and yy wanted me to).

most of all i ate yummy food :D and yes...of course i had my spring onion pancake..*tummy sang upon typing this out*

i've love those times where decisions are made last minute. like booking a flight to kuching on my last few days. and booking a flight to adelaide 5 hours b4 it departs (not for me but for dad, as i told him i hate travelling alone, so he decided to bring me to adelaide himself, so we end up spending the last 2 hours b4 going to the airport shopping for winter cloths for him..haha)

time was short, but i've enjoyed every moment of it. i'm glad to have spend most of my time with my fav aunt.

Zhen being the egomastic, cocky, macho and full of himself dude TOLD me tht i should forget about the guy who i'm currently drooling over and find someone like him. As he thinks my man is fugly and tht i should find someone sexy. errr...i asked him to define sexy. and he says sexy=him.. double ROFL. i cant stand this dude. so damm egomastic.

Zhen thinks the guy tht i like is fugly.

Zhen: Do you have a pic of him?

Me: why not i decribe to you why i like him instead of showing you he's pic.

***(after a few sentences of my beau)***

Zhen: yeah...i can tell he's ugly.

Me: wth? just by what i said about him..all the good points about him and u judge it by what i've said and could tell if he's ugly?

Zhen: of course *beams*...

Make me wanna give him one fat smack on the head.

the last 48 hours was a blur.

went to uni, pack stuffs, watched OTH, packed again, went to see vallery and janice, went to meet kath and aino, caught the bus to city for dinner (AWESOME TIME), had thai food (The meegoreng sucks, i practically played with my food, seperating it to 3 catergories, meat, veges and noodles), went to cocobean(my orea muffin was yuckkie cause it was vegan and organic), went to morning glory (one korean dude was freaking us out, so we rushed out of there), slept in the bus back(with heads bumping into each others), pack somemore, sleep.

next day, had room inspection, drove home, stressed out about unpacking and repacking again, bro helped me out, went for sushi, came bk home and glued my eyes on the computer watching OTH, watched gene simmons at 9pm, and stressed out about packing again till 12am.

today, woke up, feeling all tired, so not looking forward to a 7+ hour flight. my butt is going to hurt reeeeeeal bad.

yeah...ok...so i welcome the humid weather, slow internet speed, unwelcoming comments about my weight and acne scars, the lecture of a lifetime, and cheers to a boring life back home.

u lame.

alel was so lame tonight..i donno whats got into that boy.. i think he's a great cook from the way he describes it. but zhen say he's an awful cook and when asked, he said alel has nvr cooked anything for him...like nowonder lar..who would when zhen is a terrible food critique. say foods bad would having a taste of it. pfff..

anyhoos, i turned my attention to lamb chop (miss those babies back at miri cafe), alel says if i marry him, he would cook me lamb chop till we die young and happy. LOL...rite...i bet zhen would surely have something to say about it, as he's so against me marrying someone other than a chinese. rite. my life not he's.

the moon's red today. couldnt believe i've missed tht.i was driving to clinical at tht time...how could i have missed tht...gahhh....when told by my patient (while holding the 15g, i nearly smacked my forehead and maybe give myself a huge poke when told about the red moon and what i've missed out on)

alel says if i paint the moon blue, he would give me a kiss. yerrrrrr...right...i asked for a spaceship and truck loads of blue paints..

see what i mean by cheesie lines and flirty words? and when was zhen ever like this? see what i mean by me being so comfy when with zhen. he's like a gay friend tht i've nvr had..haha..(not to worry, he's not gay...)

alel says he can make lesbians, straight again...and again...yerrrr right.

Zhen asked me to wait for ip5 or a better phone. o..fine..for once, i go with he's idea. but heck, tht boy better get a good connection.

i heard from aziel tht zhen's coming bk to aussie to work, i tot zhen was jk when he told me tht..(o.O). cause he said he wanted to open a small business store, but i suggest he go help he's parents, and i would support him 101% by going there to buy things from him. he then say what he prefers is me working for him. sheesh..why would i wanna drive to salisbury to work for him anyways, he's dreaming,if he thinks i'll accept tht offer. but azriel asked me to help zhen out as zhen would be an awesome boss. lol.

got another result back...v.happy with my results this sem. hoped to score as many as 3 HDs this sem. hopefully i work my butt for it...getting my 3101 results tomolo, am not confident..just aiming for a pass. if not? a fail? i donno..but heck, nursing 5 is feckingly hard.