restless...i've been having weird dreams recently...which involves two guys...if tht dream occured in real life few years back, i would tot i was on cloud nine...but then i was pissed off by them..surely i've changed my mind...it nvr occured to me tht i dint even feel remorse by my actions.

someone onced asked me what i want when i turned 20..well, right now..i want peace, i dont wanna think bout the future for onced..i'm cracking myself up..

i bet most of u guys would come to a certain stage where ure tired of living..

i wish the 'old' zhen was here with me...i hate his sudden change..at least his words of comfort would heal me..i miss my dorm mate and friend terribly..