self machine. i was given a jade necklace this afternoon, was asked to wear it. so not to insult the giver, i wore it. but deep down i nvr like jade stones.

clinical went well.i'm just exhausted. was invited to carol's house for tea after clinical.

the Story of Red.

RED which i've been talking about for the past week has been sitting at the garage for almost a week now. and yes, Red, is my very own car.

it all started 3 weeks ago, when dad went and pick me up from the workplacement, and he thinks the alley is dark and dangerous and insist getting me a car.

went to ordered one, got insurance done, everything under my name. At last, last wednesday, my car arrived. Upon getting it, i was told, its my own car now, i have control of who should be behind the wheels.

i've regreted getting the car as mum kept using it against me, dad intent to make me happy over what happened last dec, in the end, i end up unhappy cause i feel like i'm being push ard to do things because dad got me this car.

lanny said i emo, i get a car, he emo..he got nth..so i should be thankful.. but if i have known tht this car is gonna get me into so much arguements, i would have said NO.

he asked: What do you think of me in person? Would you be interested in me?

after careful consideration on planning a very simple and yet, non insulting answer, with tons of smileys, and lols.

he concluded that i Am indeed interested in him.

/what the phook. i should have just answered NO instead of 3 lines of explanantion. and that might have just get the message across right.

(easter egg from ursula, its red again to help me with the red theme thats been going on for 2 weeks now...i'll keep u update on Red. cause johnny needs to fix something on it)

wow. hardly knew she was there all along.

u know me, i am those tht only check the latest updates on fb upon waking up. i load only the first page and thats it..the trouble of going thru to view everyone's updates. so in the end, i always get the last of the gossip juice. for example, a friend of mine was engaged since monkey ages, everyone has congratulated her, and after what? 6-7 months, i then found out about it? *sad and yet true.

another example, a very good old mate of mine added me (as he quote like 4-5 years ago on msn) and last night, out of the blues, he nudge me and all i can think of is when have i added him. i dont view the list but just type out their name in the search box to chat with em. the only ones i know online are the ones that sign in after me, as the annoying "ding" sound would ring thru my speakers while i'm either writing essays or watching a movie.

i hate it when i conversate with a guy friend, and the topic change to me talking about a dude, and he wont stop questioning

1. who is he?



2. is he your ex?



3. a future bf?



4. someone from uni?



5. where did u met him?



6. where is he from?



7. do u fancy him?

and when tht 'dude' did something tht he knows that i dont like,

1. i tot u hated that?



2. why did he do that?



3. so, he gets to do that?



4. is he the only one with an exception?

in the end,

1. so, are u gonna meet this dude?



2. what about the other one? tht u says creeps you out.damm...nosy friends are annoying. And this aint the first time.

went out with yy and ara today. i went to a book expo event and got 4 books just for $16. Am so DARN happy.

okay..if everything goes well, its would be arriving this wed, and to continue the arrival of my 'stuff', i started buying things in red.

red book to go with it this has got red in it, a red summer beachbagcause winter is just 2 months away, mum got me a red thermo flask, and i got myself a red pen...everything tht goes well with my red 'stuff' :)

Parents invest their money on us.

Spoil us rotten, feed us plenty, buy our happiness.

Off we go, study our ass off to get as many HD or D just to account for our yearly achievements.

Parents stress=Children stress.

I guess, i cannot be invested this year, i cannot concentrate in any of my work. i feel like such a failure. :'( i dont think i can get a single D or HD this year.

since when have i become the mum instead?

8:00am, woke up, found mum texting dad at the tv room.

9:00am, asked mum to get ready, as i need to go make an appointment for car servicing. (and she took sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long just to get herself all ready) its something tht i used to do, i dressed and doll for a very long time while mum have to wait downstairs with the car keys.

10.00am, drove the car, while mum sat at the back texting dad. its something tht i used to do when i was texting nick.

11.00am, drove to subways, parked the car, turned ard, asking mum if she wants anything from subways, she said no, i just left her in the car while i get lunch. its what mum used to do when i'm not hungry on a sat, she would get some bread from Hot cross bun and i'll always wait in the car, texting.

12.00pm, mum said she cant finished her sausage roll and wanted to chuck it into the bin, while i'm still having my lunch. i have always chucked the tapao noodles on a non schooling day bk in miri.

2.00pm, mum asked if we could go shopping, and i declined saying i've got tons of workloads to do, plus i'm lazy to drive. this is the exact same words tht i used to say to mum and mum would reply tht shes lazy to drive me out.

3.00pm, mum's bored, so she took a nap. i used to do this on a sat afternoon.

5.00pm, mum rang her friends and just chat mindlessly. which is what i used to do, i used to ring bu, or myint and talk like crazy.

8.00pm, while praying, dad texted mum, she got distracted and instead of praying, she texted the whole way thru praying time. which was what i was quite famous for bk in those days.

9.00pm, mum told me shes gonna try and read/study some christian thing. and then the next thing i know is tht she wasnt studying, she was texting. i used to sneak a couple of text to this guy while mum was infront of me studying and all i cant concentrate on what i'm suppose to study for tht night.

12.ooam, while going off to bed, i caught mum texting dad instead of sleeping. and i was trying to go to bed with her, texting dad till 1am. which was what i used to do, i always sneak in some text to someone b4 i sleep.

i conclude, my day has been turned upside down..since when have i become the mature old woman while mum acts like a sneaky teenager..the different is tht i dont share out what i say to my guy whereas mum just tell me what dad says and giggle.

In preparation for next week, everything's gotta be red. red nails, red lip gloss,red bag, red lipstick case.

Sociology's topic was on obesity. M.hall was asking us whats the difference btw food taken culturally. I've learned that in india, some certain rice could lead to type 1 diabetes. and as for caucasians here, there state tht they limit the portion of the food taken by their kids. or was asked to finish their food when young.

upon asking me, the only Malaysian, i told them i hated food when i was young. (shock No.1). and in order to get food into me, mum had to force feed me till i was quite old (like maybe 9yold; i think) (shock No. 2). up until 10 years old and to my teenage age, when i dont feel like eating, i would have a small portion of rice and a glass of water for dinner (shock No.3). i would throw up when i eat upon waking up (shock No. 4). haha...yeah..they conclude tht i was very different.

plus...while at aussie, i was taught to throw food away when i cannot finish my food and i would play with my food then up until last year, i started cooking. Of course, Aussie food, was too yummy and tht i gained 3-4 kilos since 2009. my face's meaty and chubby now..BUT to compare with first year, i could lift up my patients easily out of the chair without huffing and puffing.

so stressed out. i donno what i'm suppose to write for the upcoming assignment. i'm stuck. how? in the end, i started painting my nails (O.O) i dont mind wasting time in that, as u see, even my tutors have got beautiful pedicured nails. mine's an embarrassement. painted blood red.

waiting for it to dry out..i was flipping my feet like crazy..cause 3 coats could have easily been scraped away.

next's week the mid term break...even in mid term break, i still need to go to the uni to attend 3101. Fking hell. waste my time nia. watched this video on obesity during 3013..endless foul words and unsessored female body parts..and it was shown while i was sitting to this dude. how embarrassing.

Honey, he is a guy, he aint suppose to be yummy!

Whoopsie daisy...when talking to shaunne, i accidentally, typed, 'O, he's name's Ian yum'

Shaunne tot tht i think Ian's yummy..lol...what the heck...i donno how did my whats app change tht into yum. its Ian yun.

well actually, i donno whats my 3101 groupmate's name is..i'll just call her shaunne..cause she looks like a shaunne. :p

anyhoos..workshop was fun..we kept saying things like wanting to steal the dummie's hand and bring it to pubcrawl..and i teased shaunne till bits and pieces...cause she's gonna drown herself with booze and i kept pointing out what booze could do to her liver. Kwa was just enjoying the show of two 20 yolds going crazy with AnP. we kept poking, probing, dislocating the dummies, arms, body parts and so,we sat on the bed (like best buddies on sleepovers) and talked for ages till the tutor came. Shared tons of inside jokes and Kwa had to watch in dismay as we both act like her daughter. Did acid/alkali resp/metabolic excercise, me and shaunne was just shooting answers and kwa (onced again, have to ask us to SLOW down)..in the end, shaunna jokes tht we should just be docs instead..and when asked about abdo distension, i had a silly idea of poking the pt's flesh with a needle. (O.O)

oo...ooo..ooo...among all i got a GOLDEN STAR from my tutor...cause our tutor was asking everyone on antibiotic IV infusion, and among all, i got the right answer..which to me was odd, considering everyone has done clinical, they ought to know how to infuse antibiotics. As i explained it over and over again, clamping wasnt nessesary..but my opinion falls into death ears as everyone tot they we right to clamp the linings.

Sociology, can i be reminded of why i'm taking this shit again? i had this in first year..and now, i'm taking a 3rd year in sociology? eish! whats the difference? i got a HD in that topic, *wipes hands. and thats it, its history. argggg....goddamm..i hate sociology. and now, i've gotta write a 1500 word essay about feminism and woman's health policy.

again, for the 3rd day in a row, i concur and succeed in doing nth but watch tellie and play Diablo. wooo!!! I rock. I’ve nvr felt so free.

shopping for easter bunnies anyone? i'm going egg shopping later on. o smack! i need to find something for gary for he's birthday. Jason is still trying to use the force on me to go to gary's bd...havent seen tht dude tht likes to tickle me since last sep? (well he saw me with zhen, i saw he's side when he turned into MCD).