Babe left for Sg today. this week will be the most depressing week ever. Yy is leaving this friday. This means no more nice pictures anymore. i will miss denise's cameras (shes got 4, all takes good quality pictures) My gurls brings the best in me. I smile and laugh more when i'm with them. I became the silly/giddy/ditzy girl that i am when i'm with the KiKi girls. I will truely miss my gurls a lot. Every gang of mine is different but then i stick to my gurls more often than others. Cannot believe its been 4 years..We first met cause i dint know how to set my internet up. Denise then brought yy to my room. We then went to Amanda's unit and that was when i first heard of avocado smoothie and tot it was the grosses thing ever. (i've yet tried it)..hahaok..enuf of the sad stories. Went to ECA last week. Met a few international student. Dont get me starting of the Romanian guy. What a flirt. First off, i made friends with a few japanese and a korean guy.
Nice typical Korean man. Its hard to conversate with him. As he hardly gets me. So i had to try racking my brain on some Korean words (Korean dramas do come in handy). Yeah we're meeting up and was on my way to see him, bumped into Vince. And he's words when i told him i'm meeting up with my korean friend is "What? Another guy?"...haha...yeah but not to worry, my korean friend's got a gf. and i'm not interested in him anyways. He's sooooo goddamm shy when with me, i'll have to do most of the talking. He's teaching me badminton tomolo. And ice skating some other day. He snowboards and my brain instantly thinking of darin. Anyhoos..yeah...see how tomolo goes.

Who am i kidding. One day with RJ. just texting brings my annoyance to the edge. I cant deal with him. But how to ease the friendship at the slow pace when all he's been asking is to see me? I'll have to come up with an answer/solution quick.

I cant say that i'm happy that zhen is right about Darin, and that it will only take me a week to realise where our friendship is going. Who the heck am i kidding, he's a goddamm workaholic for goodness sakes. Workaholics have no life outside the office box.



I had the funniest dream. well say, it was a nightmare to me. cause u know how i'm trying to shoo RJ away, but in my dreams, he stayed and annoyed the heck out of me, not wanting to leave me, he then followed me home. i screamed and kick the air in fustration telling him to Get the heck out of my house, but he wont move at all,telling me how much he misses me and that we should be closer. IT was a complete NIGHTMARE.I was so scared, it was like me meeting freddy the nightmare.i was waken up by chien and thank goodness for that.

I hardly take pictures anymore...pictures are mostly sent to me..or taken from my friend's album during our outings. too lazy. camera too old.haha.

I am very annoyed by 2 guys recently. Luke and RJ.

Luke acts like as if he owns me. YOU dont OWN me at all. So stop asking who i'm out with, you wont have known. He prac acts like a child who wants a goddamm candy to shut he's annoying attention seeking cries (yeah, i know its too much of a say, but then this is how i feel) i am exhausted from answering he's silly questions. Let me live, Let me hang ard with my friends without being questions everytime of whether i fancy that dude or not. Jeeelewizzz.. what a horror has he become all of a sudden from wanting to eat japanese with me cause i told him i ate with Darin and then traveling with me or to see me when im always travelling with a friend or to see my friends.

And theres RJ. Like OMFG. i'm always taking deep calming breathes when with him. I dont wanna lose my temper over the way he dines (i have yet met anyone like him who ravish meals like a lady). No i am not gonna block him out, very determine to change this dude so that he doesnt make other girls suffer. He shall not lose he's self esteem cause i let him down. I shall rebuild this guy. (but of course, a little complain goes along the way)..i shall reshape this guy till maybe the last straw of annoyance i could take.


Thats why Colby used to say things like " wont it be better if you've got a dude instead ". yes..i do agree...just a dude and prob like these are solved. But if having a dude that is going to question me all the time like Luke, i rather just have my own space and not take any chance with anyone.

U turned me out.

I just returned frm Melb. Fun times and yet I cant wait to go bk to adelaide. Freakingly tired to the max.

Will talk about that later. I went to a church group last night, brought Zhen (yes, the dude that i havent seen for 1year plus)..haha..awkward moment at first. but all resolved. I got the lecture of my life from him. He ask the most "slapping on the head" question of all. Thinking to myself. WHAT THE HECK am i trying to archieve here? Making Colby dead jealous isnt going to solve the issue. the thing is. im not making Colby Pea green..just telling him, the thing is fine, i'm ok with it, i'm moving on (altho there is nothing to move on). but i just wanna assure him that i'm OK and FINE. but zhen says my tactics are all so freakingly dumb. *ouch.

Altho i can say. i'm Not very sure where my heart stands at the mo. Jealous at times, and ignorant all the while. When at melb, i dint even think about him at all.

Zhen says that colby looks down when he saw me bringing him to the meeting. But all and all Zhen will always be my friend. Altho, a lot has been asking whose the dude i brought in that evening. Zhen says colby's been shooting daggers across the room. I wont have known. And ppl seems to be pushing me to colby all night. saying, just bring colby along when i say i wanna go to an event.. or something, 'o, why not ask colby'.. Makes me wonder what has he told he's friends.

When i met Darin at melb, i was on cloud 9. seriously, i was beaming from ear to ear. I am interested him Darin. But u know, those "wow, he's a great companion" kinda interest. Zhen says it would nvr work btw me and Darin cause he's at melb and i'm here. Plus, i hardly know Darin, except for the fact that i love he's eyes and would love to hear he's voice again, it was so soothing during this complicated time of my life. Zhen says it could be an act as i dont even know if him, he might be taken as i've only met him twice, and he could be lying to get my interest btw conversations. Yes. it could be true.

And theres luke, that just told me whats in he's heart. I dint know what to say so i thanked him for he's words and told him he's sweet. I couldnt deal with so much guys now. I'm in a mess. I donno how to reply him.

And of course, theres RJ, i wouldnt even go futher. as i find this dude boring. but then we shall remain friends. and thats all.