Happy Chinese New year peps. :) been busy having the time of my life with cousins, family and friends...
got my dorky glasses.

went to get my hair washed, i wanted tht lady to curl my hair inwards with my hair Straight...but was too busy whatsapping luke and found out a little too late and end up having curly hair..as u can see..it went to wavy by night time.

Feel sick to the stomach. I've not been feeling great since yesterday. Viva voce was horrible. I couldnt stop thinking about it. Spoils my mood.

Had dinner with the malaysian gang. All 10 of us went to Ming's steamboat and then 2nd floor to have desserts.

Due to me not having solid foods for days...i cannot even finished a bowl of rice T.T i feel so nauseous. AND pls..NO, i'm NOT pregnant. 3 kisses doesnt lead to pregnancy. Altho zhen keeps saying thts the reasons to it and that i dint tell him the rest of the story..*eyes rolling..like puhlease.

I know i havent been well and needs to go to the doc or something but i've completely lose my appetite (due to stress, anxiety and etc.)..its not like i'm on a diet..NO i am not...its just tht my stomach cannot take it and as i eat, i feel nauseous. and after a meal filled with solid food, i feel unwell.

i dreamt of him again last night. more like a friendly dream..the setting was always at my house. donno why. I missed him..i wish he could be with me today. when i'm feeling scare and insecure, i wish i could turn to him. i wish he would give me a hug, telling me its alright. But every guy is diff. like zhen..when a girl is cold, he says he doesnt give her he's coat. and tht he had nvr offered he's shoulders for a girl to cry on. (no wonder mingming cannot stand him)

:D i get to hear zhen's sleepy voice on skype last night. Ahh..how i miss it...sorta smexy in a way. but then when he gets excited over a topic, he's sleepy smexy voice would change, and theres a rush of excitement in he's voice (it somehow changes its tone or tune).

yeah..cause he wanted to hear some secrets from me..he's always been like this since the day i know him. asking me about the guys and secretly checking their webpage, snickering on the background, telling me how butt fugly they are. T.T

so many canadian chicks friends he has. 3 on the counting. but i'm happy to hear whatever he shares. N...he thinks skinny is the waist size of 24-25. T.T ..i shall nvr go out with him anymore. i just checked and goddammm..i'm an exact waist size 27...o..NO....zhen says he's a waist size of 30. double o. NO....

he thinks we should have lunch. asking me to drive to richmond and he would drive us to lunch. yerrr right...after last night..i dont think i wanna face him no more...just let him picture me as the girl with a waist size of 25 when i first came here.

he thinks we should hang more often so he can listen to my Mimic. with he's 'wo yao ting ne shou de mimi/mimic ar' and when i ask why. he replies "yingwei ni hen dou mimi/mimic..ni mei ken wo ziang'....like as if...i'm dried out of secrets.

okay...maybe theres a new few ones..which from he's voice tone, he thinks its weird. and thinks the beau i like 'hen pian tai'...and he goes like "wtf, ta hen Hiao"...haha..i always cracked up when he says the word "hiao". cause the tone is so funny.

ok..enuf of him. its the last day for me to brainstorm for ideas for my viva. ;.( <-- le' smexy sad mole.

(this is the pic luke likes)..yeah..at least u get to see a b4 pic of me b4 i cut my hair.

wow..i feel loved by my aunt, my fav aunt, lanny and daddy. After their calls..i feel so much better. Dad was so worried tht he suggest to take the 2pm flight over to see me. He says i sound sick. As for lanny and aunty, they are both baking up a plan. (No kiss and tell now). As for my fav aunt..her words are always comforting :)

i cannot believe i broke almost all my nails while doing house chores. Now I’m faced with horrible, chipped up nails which hurts T.T.

I have a surprise waiting for u guys (especially my close friends)with side effects of fear of course..And no I'M NOT PREGNANT!! i cannot believe my dad read on that post (thanks to lanny, zhen, jenkins, myint, melvin) who went with the flow of me being pregnant. No-wonder dad kept saying things like 'if u've got a prob, don’t hide it, tell me' @.@

Be strong SHEILA!! I’ll have to remind myself to hold on and be strong..i can go thru with the review at 11am today. i can and i will.

I hope i wont break apart. Janice ask to bring a brown paper back in case of hyperventilation.

I dreamt of home. I miss it so much. I really wanna go bk. maybe for a week. But the after consequences i have to face, is terrifying me and is stoping me from making a move. *SIGH..how i wish i could sleep in jt to have tht picture of home and family in my head a little longer. Dreaming on the comfort of being surrounded by loved ones is eating a hole in my heart.

And him. I dreamt of him again. And he’s hurtful words (although it’s not hurtful from he’s point of view, but I did feel a pang of pain when he said it). What i needed was comfort me at this breakable point. Instead, he chose to stay away and yet say those things to me.

Jason says he misses he's 'Little silly Sheila' like who doesnt? My friend says he misses my smile and the twinkle in my eyes when i'm happy. I miss it too. I wake up every morning wishing that what i'm facing is just a bad dream. I look forward to my nightly sleep. thats when my exhausted mind let lose and i dream of things that without waking up would seems so real. i could not taste the fear, disappointment and anger but only happy moments in life.

Was very depressed yesterday. i guess its after the lunch party at Jsin's house.

met up with vincent for dinner, had hot chocolate at he's house. talked till 2am. i was completely wired at tht time.

advices was given on my personal, miserable life. but i'm glad i had someone to talked to.

went to morning mass today. Half way thru, i had one of my minor episodes of panic attack. deep breathing and fresh air calm my nerves. but then it happened again after lunch. one leads to another, and thats when i felt the pain..(yes, the one i had in 2010, the one were i promised the girls, ah nut and a few tht i will get it checked but am too lazy to). i havent had tht pain for a month or two. and now its back. *freaking heck! what such nonsence and bad timing.

zhen advice me to get valium for the anxiety attacks..i might get something for the depression as well...and as for the pain..i got my trusty 42 packs of asprin. and one strip of panadol to keep me at edge. (yes,i know. i dont like taking pain killers, but with so much going on, i dont freakingly care)

went to have my bangs cut. sent a b4 and after pic to luke. he thinks i look pretty with long bangs...but then again cute with short bangs. =.= (need luke to sent me the pics..cause i aint got em, deleted once sent..haha)

had korean dinner with denise and yy at seoul rest. it was awesome..forgotten to take pics. fun times catching up till 11.30pm

aparently. denise's most hot topic of the night was about sex. we couldnt stop laughing when i told them about the news article i read years back on this dude that dint know how to do it and has been doing it the wrong way.

denise came up with the idea of having a chart drawn out on the honeymoon. OMFG. i cannot imagine education on the night of the wedding. we all cracked up silly.

and talked about music parody. Go check out Key of Awesome's parody on youtube. i bet u'll be laughing like i did. of course u'll need to watch the original version of it b4 hand.

fun night :)

Happy new year!. So much have happened since yesterday. yes. thank goodness to a nice start of 2012.

had steam boat dinner at my house with a bunch of friends. watched movie, talked, laugh, played cards and sparkles...with Jsin popping a bottle of champagne. and watching fire works which my neighbours put.

the rest of the night was blur but its a great start to year 2012. got tucked in and slept till 6am.

went to mass today, lunch and went to ikea to get my cloths rack (so goddamm happy with my purchase). after tht went bk home, watched movie with my friend. and fell asleep till 9pm. went to he's place to have dinner.


12.30am, 1st jan 2012 joke

Dianne: eh, who wants to finish the last few pieces of agar agar . (cause regina made agar agar for my NYeves dinner)

Johnny: eui, thats from last year.

Most of us: -.-"

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Me: eh, u know him right? neh..tht one from blah blah blah.

Lin: o, u mean the one with two eyes, one nose and mouth right? of course i know him.

Me: completely speechless.