Yes, i admit. It was puppy love. (How childish it sounds) but without Ara questioning me continuously on my so called liking towards Colby, it would take me a while to know/notice. As i answer he's questions, it was he's method of psychology to get ure brains turning and your heart open. Without realising, i answered the last questions automatically. And the answer was a 'No' and realise i like him as a brother more than a friend.
Thank god for that. why haven’t i tot of it, i mean Colby did ask me about it, he doubt my liking towards him. but i was tooo tired, tooo sleepy to answer him. The more i ignore Colby and likewise...i was like 'Meh'. it doesnt kills me to not have him around no more. No next target. altho luke wont stop asking. i hope and wish he would just drop the topic.

I'm avoid Rj btw. taking Ara's advices to not text the guy when he texts...give it a few days to cool down..it sorta just give him an idea of the direction i'm going. which is we are just friends

Of course, outing with the girls and guy. its the best.. Ara joke at the fact that i should go to the fortune teller to ask who is the next freak i am going to bumped into...lol...yes..they all agree where all these ppl come from.


4 more weeks and two of my Sg besties will be flying off. and god knows when i'll able to see them again. *SAD. i will truely miss my girls.

i knew this day would come.

Luke sorta am upset with me. Even more than expected because i did not see the last message on Monday. and now its Wednesday.

Yes. After the last episode of me having a huge boohoo over Colby. Luke thinks its he's que to butt in and save the broken hearted me.

Of course, i backed off. and now he's saying things like 'i did not even give him chances'. well..i cannot blame him. Been mooning over Colby since last year.

o well...went out with Rj again..i should prob just shoot myself...if i have to dine with this man again..i would die...seriously...i have no interest in what so ever he say..i've tried..this is my 3rd attempt. but then i cannot take it no more...i'm not being crude..its seriously boring the heck out of me. i've escaped a few yawns in just half an hour...whats worse..he's being so nice and all makes it hard for me to say no without sounding mean..and plus, he walks me to uni on monday..When i tried so hard to find excuses asking him not to walk me there..Escaping someone rude and crude, that i can do..but escaping someone so nice and kindly mannered..its hard to do.

o'common...when i typed out "this time ard, i don’t mind weird fellows approaching me. c'mon, like why at times like these, i dont get ppl like tht when i need them for distraction. (its always the unexpected times yea?. and no i aint gonna call or text Mr TAXI DRIVER)" on my post on 26th Dec 2011...this isn’t what i was expecting. (><)

On fires end. I guess.



cookie baking session damm fail...last night..was at vince's place to bake some cookies for O-week. but then things did not work out well...cookie turned out burned and rock hard..i super love cyril's face expression upon tasting the cookies. haha..

colby was there as well.. i donno how long could i take it..i just wanna shake him hard...we teased each other. i guess i was being airheaded annoying when on the phone with zhen. cause colby replied in annoyance.

but its all on me to have eyes for a guys like him. the more i'm with he's friends, the more i get to see the real colby. which is not attractive at all..but understandable.

Well just because i cancelled out on my Valentines dinner date on the last minute, I'm now faced with the question of being a lesbian? WTH man.

To clarify; I AM NOT A LESBIAN..If i was one, i won’t have said No to the 2 girls I’ve met along my way in life.
If you, she/he who still questions..Then why did i waste time heartbrokenly dwell on Colby and my previous beau(s) all this while?
Anyhoos. Yes, i cancelled out on my V.date. to make matters worse. i sound like an evil friend when he reply me in the sweetest most understanding text ever. i feel like a goddamm meanie.

the thing is, why i'm cancelled out on him is because all i think all day is Colby. and being out with another friend while thinking about the other doesn’t seems right. plus, if mich did plan out on out hang out session tonight..i might get to spend time with a bunch of singletons. We get to cry over our suckkie love life and watch some sappy romantic movie instead.

Recent report from a friend, Colby's is on OT?!? Heck, can someone pass me the bottle of posion.

O. how i wish its him (lets just call him colby) who have asked me out on Valentines day.


But instead, i said a quick, non-thinkable, easy OK. to Mr Lawyer. yes. the stupidity of me..how could i have said Ok to a dinner date without checking what the date of next tuesday is.

N now, not unless i think of something smart, quick and witty to reply Mr Lawyer..i have no way of escaping this tuesday's Valentines dinner date with him.


O. gawd help me. why cant my love life be as simple as ABC. why make me walk-run and chase for love?


Tomolo, colby invited me to a dinner with he's friends.

Thinking about our 10 min meet up last wed and on Monday night..i donno why i find it hard to face him without looking at my feet. I wish he could tell me its alright when i'm crushed, and hold my hands when i about to fall.


Instead, i learn about him the hard way. Why did he have to think so far ahead?

to first like someone, u should know them better.

hello. yes, I’m back from my 2 weeks break and in btw.

i met up with a few friends bk home. Who gave me an inside scoop on what’s to see about my current chase. and i realise he was diff from what i expected. i should ask guy friends more on guys stuff..They are experts in knowing how to read certain actions of my friends.

after dumping all the crap loads on my current chase. i end up getting all worked up and pissed off knowing what was going thru that boy's mind when he was with me. i wanted to take a plane over and shove him with all my might, give him a huge slap in the face and kick he's jewel bags.

But heart melts a bit when standing next to my current chase. Heart and mind needs to be alert being around him.

Enuf of him. i met two guys on my trip back. cause flight got delayed, i walked ard Sg airport and sat next to decent looking guy. He asked me something about why there was a long line to go into the waiting room. I explained the rhetorical questions of having ppl scanning ure hand carry bags b4 boarding the plane. He then asked if i was local. I said no. and Me with him, found out he was from Melb. An ABC (yes, i tot of melody straight away)..haha..We end up having a fab time talking and end up being the last few to get on the plane.

Cause Melb guy's got an aussie passport, he went thru immigration easier and faster than those holding a foreign passport. but he did say (on text) tht he waited for me at the baggage area. but then give it a few minutes b4 rushing to catch the next flight to Melb.

Thats when i met Adelaide guy. While waiting in line to get my passport scanned by the immigration officer, i saw Rachel. Talked. and Adelaide guy who was sorta in btw me and Rach turned and saw me holding on to a Malaysian passport and asked to confirm i'm from Malaysia. We end up talking and then exchanging numbers as he's got no Fbook. We went out on tues. Chatty guy. Who reads a lot. :) We're meeting up next week.

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Being back home was a huge stress release. I feel so pampered back at miri. So loved. I really did enjoy my time back home. How i wish i could stay longer...i get to meet the girls. :D i will blog about it on a later longer post.

In the mean time. thats for now.