cupcakes! aino wrapped it up for me. how lovely.

ate two cupcakes for dinner. :P i'm like getting fatter and fatter by the day. while xiao shuai is getting thinner as he claims to be swimming, now tht he's at KL.

watched 'how to deal' last night. up until the last minute of the movie, i realise i've watched it b4 ages ago. Xs says he's gonna motivate me to study harder and look out for me from far. wow, what devotion. haha.

going to c.p today. once again, looking at blood,machine,wires,tubes and needles. how depressing. damm nursing's so depressing. i cant stand watching ppl at the end stage of their lifes, in pain, and taking up like 14 meds a day. well at least one day i could help someone out, as i'm gonna donate my organs when i die.

just a bit tired, cause i spend 2 hrs playing diablo with lanny last night, got distracted and died like 3 times. arg!.

I made chicken and mushroom pot pie. it was so good tht i had two for lunch...baking it for the girls during out pot luck session. i'm planning for another outing with the girls this weekend (if they are free of course). i became the last min kinda girl when dealing with assignments. i cant believe from being all prepared and nearly finished a month ahead in first year, to doing double check two weeks b4 due on 2nd year to the day b4 its due in 3rd year. What the heck happened??? i used to be the girl tht goes to the library every night with zhen in first year, with me reading up on AnP and him watching some dramas on youtube. To going to the library once or twice a week or going over to janice's unit to finish up on workloads on 2nd year. To this girl whose too lazy to even step out of the unit in 3rd year. Guess the lazy bug finally got me. I'm just too lazy to care in 3rd year. Too lazy to study on it. Too depressed to even concentrate on workloads. Everytime he rings asking me on why i aint studying, all i can say is i'll deal with it later, and its all bunched up at the corner. pictures got taken without my permission. but then got vain after tht. i was caught using my WTPooh phone. cause my nokia went flat after whatsapp-ing lit mickey all day. (hmmp..i should really stop calling him tht, tht nickname was given ages ago when young, i should now call him xiao shuai. cause thts he's nickname by friends. and i cant call him just mickey as there another guy with the nickname mickey at perth)..haha..o well..i donno why mickey. but then its cute.

Last friday was A-some. Had pizza and pasta at scoozi's. pic's with yy. went to rundle, did grocery shopping with the girls. After that, went to body shop where all of us buttered ourself with yummilicious body butter. :P ..yy took us all to order our cupcakes...and the anticipation of it arriving at my door on monday is a bit too much, so in the end, i got my own yummy violet butterfly. (i sorta accidentally scaped part of the frosting while opening the box)

and now, with green tea by my side, and a tummy full of noodles..i proceed into finishing my damm assignment. i cant believe i took 2 and a half days just to finish this stupid assignment with no questions and just statements of clinical settings. i feel like i'm dealing with Mr meyer all over again X(

i got my results from drug cal. just as i suspected, they checked workings. and i got 9/10. and i need to resit for tht agn. ARG!!! should have given my draft paper with my correct workings instead.

well i would think its caused the pressure, and with what happened last dec, and plus i was mentally exhausted cause of clinical and having to deal with 3 assignments which is due next week. i in the in burst into tears. rang yy up, she walked to FMC, i picked her up, when to her house and just talked it out. i felt so much better after tht..then end up joking, going crazy laughing and giggling again..even collin said its good to see tht i'm destressing. well to get to tht bit, i cancled out on clinical today, cause of last night, puffy eyes..and i will deal with tht later, and i'm going out with the girls for lunch today.. :D:D soooo happy..

but b4 that, i need to finished at least one question from my online quiz today :D

Communication Failure~

Girl: give me some time, i need space to breathe.

Boy: (translated) Lets just break it off. And dont think u should wait for me.

WTF. (www.gg.com)

The next thing u know is that the blame is on you, the one that needs some time to breathe.

Aino invited me for Japanese yum yums at the main campus. :P~~

Had fun with my group at workshop just now. Couldnt stop laughing at the dummie which was this week's Pt, Mr meyer. i couldnt do CPR as i keep slipping off the pt's bed cause of my shinny tights.

Arg..why placements? i am missing out on outing with the girls this friday cause of my placements.

i'm gonna doll up tomolo as i'm going out for dinner. YAY!

luke is going somewhere..i donno where it is..brahim?? i donno..i donno how its affecting me catching up with him. 7 hrs apart..its so hard to talk to him. Plus Whatapp is draining both of our phone batt. dang.

i cant rmber most of what has been going on in my sec school years..whats more Alvls..all i do rmber tht i was a happy child and i love going to sch cause i wanna see my friends again.

i'm suffering from memory lost here. i just cant rmber at all. when i think about a certain period of life in sec sch, my mind goes blank. the only thing i rmber are those tht were wrote in my diary, my kiki book, and blog. (O.O)..omgawd...what the heck happened?

Jimmy eat world is one of the best bands ever..listen to their songs when ure feeling down..it suits the mood best.

friday night did not turned out the way i planned, i wanted food, the guys wanted beer. starved, unhappy, bored while waiting for the guys to drown up the beers. Lanny was happily high. collin made me talk. he wanted to know why i've been depressed. i cant believe i welled up infront of him. of course no tears flowing out, but just tears welling up in my eyes. after tht, he brought my mood down,i lost my appetite completely. went bk to ray's apartment..i was completely lost in tots. reached home at 1.30am.

I invited Denise and Alex for pizzas at 5pm. we waited an hr for the delivery @.@ Alex was at the same time funny in the conversations and shy...well mostly quite during dinner, while me and Denise was sharing inside jokes..I laughed till there was tears in my eyes...it was so inappropriate..but yeah...in front of Alex and room 1 (i will get to later) we were talking about bobbies..LOL

Yeah...cause we both agreed when watching one of the Asian movies, with Jay chow and Gong Li in it..i think it’s called the golden flower?..not sure..anyhoos..Me and Denise have no clue what the story of the movies about. We both agreed that all rmbered was looking at a bunch of boobies and then the next thing we know is tht the show has ended. lol

Room 1, yes..i call my housemates by room numbers..(Sad now isn’t it?)..Well cause i can nvr rmber their names... and so with the help of Denise, i got the names of room 5, which is Ashlee (i gv her the nickname of brunette cause of her hair colour)..and cassie (room 2, which i call her as the tall one)...i donno whats the name of room 1 (which I’ve given the name of the blonde one/ the one whose name starts with the letter "s")..and room 4, which I’ve nvr talked about. AND on top of tht, all 4 of my housemates, rmbers my name from day 1, they always greets me whenever we bumped into each other..i feel so dopey 

its not even 3 days yet, i cant even keep my hands off tht jar of olives ..grrrrr....Urusla got me hooked up on olives. (yes, i really hate olives before that, and now i'm addicted)..i've preserved mine in dried chillies,oregano, garlic and bathe them in olive oil..and for it to get tht yummy taste, i would need to perserve it for a week..but my jar of olive's almost finish cause i couldnt stop munching on those yummies.

ursula cut some fresh herbs and flowers for me (but sadly, the flowers died in just 2 days, i guess, i dint preserve them well)..then she gave me a potted plant to start me off with gardening. i have no idea what tht plant is.

if only i can get Jim to get my landscaping done, cause i wanna plant some of wisteria

see how pretty these plants are.

Over the holidays, i've learned knitting, asked zhen to learned it, asked mamma to Learn it, in the end; i learn it all on youtube. btw, Zhen told me its heck sissy to be doing this kind of shit as a guy and mamma told me knitting are for Grannies

I’ve knitted only two scarves (@.@) well..i did knit a heart square shaped piece which I’m so lazy to get on with (and yes, that was luke's valentines gift, what a shame tht I can’t find the time to finish tht piece, plus I’m gonna embarrassed him crazy with tht bright pink color tht i knitted the hearts in)

plus, while knitting, i was told by Nancy tht some guys don’t appreciate DYIs by girls..The best example would be my cousin fred.

this was my first piece, i love how the green looks, even lanny thinks its pretty too. What an enormous compliment.

this is slightly different, For mum, i traveled to the spotlight, got lost and all just to get this reddish color wool as mum would love it (and partly cause i wanted her to stop taking my scarves) LOL...

maybe its cause i went to the gym, ran till my whole body feels like jello...i feel so happy, bright and relaxed (cause i refuse to look at any books at the mo). and i get to treat all the girls for a gym session tomolo. YAY!!!!! i was thinking of treating them for zumba or dance, or maybe just cardio, and if they want weight lifting, i dont mind too. just their preference.

and whats more, zhen was concern about me (i feel so touched). and lanny tagged me (u can view it on fb) a video of me and my cousins..damm funny, and even when young, i look so damm mean..(O.O)...apuuuuuuuu...i donno why i gv someone a hard stare like as if i wanna kick them..

i seriously dunno why i have a build in instinct to totally tune out from some guys. Like when adeline introduced me to paul (her housemate), i just smile, talk for a while, and then SKL him without even knowing i’m doing it. And then i made lewis feel so lefted out (O.O). i just donno why i do tht?

Like tonight, while my housemates are having friends over, Von <-- remember him? Tht guy i used to think is cool, tease me till one time i got so mad at him infront of zhen. And yes, tht Von who is so damm hilarious at times. Hilarious when he finds other ppl’s weakness and tab kua kua, till tht person wanna si ki. Ok...i got side tracked...yes, Von was at my unit, and sadly, he kena SKL chin chin cause my housemate sorta whispered my name while i was back facing them and he said quite loud enuf tht he knows me, and was like ‘sheila, hey...smiles *laugh..thn awkward silence’ with me still staring at him trying to figure out who this dude is...Von: while talking to him friend in a embarrassed way “erm, she just stands there and i don’t think she remembers me”. Thts whn i snapped out of it and whispered “von??”....Von: *smiles..yeah. me : *smiles....walk away, i feel so embarrassed upon meeting him in my mickey mouse pants and elmo shirt, what a mess...i haven’t seen him since first year..and he has changed a lot..like seriously, the hair and all...

Have u ever had those kinda moments where the song that was playing at that very moment reminded you of a special event? Yeah. and tht sorta brings out one of the happiest moments in life and u don’t want it to end. I, at times imprint someone with a song. :)

Even without trying, i have a feeling that i would not be able to get thru for this year. it’s just so hard. i donno how ppl can achieve this very tiring course. Stressful and sooooo unappealing. I questioned myself as to why i took this course in the first place. Why cant i be like those that doesnt have to study but have gained so much in life. arg. My tutor told me that when u study this course, it doesn’t mean that u would end up being a nurse. As being a nurse (even tho she is one) has a very dark set back as by helping others, we end injuring my body. She said it is known that doing shift works takes out 10 years of ure life. OMG . otk tok kei??.

eik, i might as well take this degree, go bk to miri and do what I’ve always wanted to do. A teacher? :D or or maybe i get to work in a office XD ..Office girls dressed up elegantly, is pretty looking and whats more, they get to wear heels. XD (x2) ..yeah..I’m dreaming of something tht is soooo good to be true.

me: doctor, i'm feeling unwell.

doc: whats wrong my dear?

me: my heart hurts. *while placing a palm over my heart

doc: *panic look in his eyes*, where is the pain? how serious it is? how long have u had the pain?

me: o. erm its just here *pointing at where my heart is located. i'm not quite sure how serious it is, but i dont think u'll be able to cure it.

doc: if its a heart attack, i might need to sent u to the ED. ok tell me exactly what happen.

me: he left me and i am heartbroken. *SOBS

doc: ok..lets see...eh? WHAT? what is this about? a boy?

me: *nods

doc: U.Came.to.me.with.pain.concerning.a.guy?????

me: *nods again.

well the next thing i knw is tht i'm rushed out of the docs room and my alarm clock rang telling me its 9am. what a shitty dream i have. hah!. all thanks to the drama i've recently watch, it floods my head with nonsence.