been slacking a lot on my work cause of my assignments...

kenyon cant get me out of uni hall for supper everynite since tuesday...tht little dweeb sat next to me at workshop on thursday and asked me out for dinner...i couldnt say no to tht as i'm out of reasons to...and clearly i wasnt in the mood for any outings...cause earlier tht morning...i got a call from zhen...he told me wat has been bugging him...and now i couldn stay mad at him...obviously he has a very hard time this week...he couldnt really get the words out right...and i would have to pressure him to keep talking as i dont even understand the pieces of info which was being said...i fall into a very tiny shock....and all those silence,moody conversations...and those harsh words...all makes sence to me now...obvious too tired of wat has been going on, he feel asleep on the waiting room chair..anyways, i called last nite and he's mum picked up the phone...she still at the hospital...so i hanged up.....i was tying my hair whn he rang...at first i couldnt be bother thinking it was kenyon agn asking me to lunch...i'm a bit annoyed by it...shoes shoes....whenever i go to my 1104 tutorial, all those womans always comment on my shoes...sexy shoes? LOL....i dont see nth sexy bout it...and its a bit scary cause all they do is look at my shoes when we are in a group...so i always hide my legs behind the chairs...haigh's chocolate factory....2 days ago was porn party,i obviously dint go...attended area dinner...won myslef tons of chocolates and a mug...and i simply guessed the answers to aussie history....o sia soi when my bro said i dont even know anything bout malaysian history and yet could answer all aussie history..-.-"...after dinner with kenyon last nite, he brought me to windy peak...(a very good place to pak tor)...but then it was 6 degrees...i was freeeezing...i walk like frozen lollipop...cause i dint expect him to bring me there..so i dint have a thick coat...wearing what i would wear back in malaysia... goodness what was i thinking?!?!?
windy peak is the place zhen took aino to and she got sick for 2 weeks after tht cause it was too cold...and cause its at the mountains...she just stayed for the view..well tht was in summer....while i, on the otherhand was there on winter...cold air...cold night...purple finger tips and frozen mind...i walked one round and then went back to the car...kenyon was like 'well i dint expect out little adventure to be so damm short'...well what does he expect?..i was cold...plus i was a bit bored by all his convos....cause he talks bout cars a LOT....in most of our conversations...boring lar...so he drove us to sugar bowl to have some desserts...i had green bean soup..but my mind keep drifting back to what zhen said tht morning...oo...lookie lookie....look wat i gottt....got myself a new phone...and this is my first time getting a new phone without daddy choosing the phone.its my own choice.....woooohoooo.,..i dint want any touch screen phones as i would have a hard time smsing friends...cause i'm keeping my nails long...:D so i got a nokia N85....and then hor....cause of the damm shiny surface, i'm suffering as i'm rubbing off finger prints...sish....just like touch screen for me ler....getting alll the finger prints on the buttons...sien....i cant wait for formal dinner tonight..!!! wiii....i made bookings with inglot...and they are gonna do my make up:D:D:

i skipped lectures and tutorial today....WHY????...well cause aino and gary had thier everyday fight and arguement agn...and then she was really down...so i skipped tutorial to accompany her to HAIGH'S chocolate factory...and as for lecs,i couldnt get up for it..and it was so cold as it was pouring...

every bite of tht yummy creamy dark scorched almond chocolates makes me feel so guity as i'm growing fatter and fatter each day....its winter,its raining...i need body heat...i need fatty meats....i need tons and tons of ice cream...YUMMY..had tht for dessert...

sitted opposite Von, such a nice guy...he shared bagels with me..cause i dint know how it taste like...and we joked so much..and was laughing like no one else's buzz...its nice to sit with someone else besides preverted ass gary and zhen...well since sammy's still giving me the cold shoulders,i dont sit with him no more....the nicest guy would be collin among all the guys...cause aino and me was talking bout it while waiting for the bus...but then after dinner today, i think Von is nice too...tho i dont talk to him much..as he's always busy...cause he's doing medical...he says its much more worse than nursing...me doing wat i do best...on the phone...and i got my own jersey...with SHEILA and the number 50 printed on the back...cool eh...haha...i couldnt get the number 10...so i choose 50 instead...oooo..HAPPY DAYS :D

pictures of the day~LOL...while waiting for dinner..:D

messy hair..cause zhen asked me to not cut it....i'm still a bit annoyed by him..he told me i left him alone...wt heck....for onced...cant i?..after so many times he did tht to me during breakkie...he told me just cause i left him hanging there by his own, he went back...as usual, i cant sleep at all last nite...toss n turn till 1am...then woke up at 7am...with an alert mind to shower at 9 degrees and was pouring this morning...ah....how i miss thunderstorms...i miss lightning too.. :P ..

peaceeeeeeee....i prac walk around blinded by my long hair to lanny's room and upon seeing me,he was like "WHAT THE HELL?"..and both of us laugh silly...and he wanted to take a pic of me with my hair covering my face...haha...too bad i dint get to see ana on9...heck..it would be fun...i bet she could do the same too..LOL,...damm..i cant believe i'm postin these pics out.....i need to release stress...*.* i went down to the office planning to get my assignment but its not out yet.. :/ 3 weeks liau lor...i'm nervous as most of my course mates...

addicted to res. city on facebook...stupid reuben hire me as a toilet cleaner dressed up as a criminal...wait till i have enuf money, i'll bully him back for good...

oo..speaking of guys, kenyon wont stop bugging me...its a bit irritating...and he keep calling me for no reason...and its not helping when aino and collin gave me the ^.^ look..he keeps calling me asking if i wanna go out for dinner or another movie...last week, he even wanted to drive me back home...hmmp..

~bored~LAZY~sien~TIRED~

i'm dead tired...i donno why...maybe cause i slept ard 2am last nite...and woke up at 9.30am? i tot zhen was going to come down...sheesh...say will come down for breakkie ard 9.30....make me sit there like an idoit agn...

he's sick...i donno what wrong with him also...at times..he can seems so damm gay and happy...but then this week, he's been so tired and then waste his whole day sleeping...i did try to get him to take in panadol..but it doesnt seem to help..(like i said b4, speaking of the devil, he just messaged me as he had just woken up)...i wanted him to follow me to marion last nite, cause kenyon (my Hk workshop buddy) wanted to drive me to chinatown for dinner, but then cortney wanted him to sent her chinatown too...so in the end, i told him i dint wanna go liau...not tht cortney isnt fun to hang out with..heck,shes the class clown..but thn agn i was a bit tired to get my coat back at uni hall...

so while enjoying my dinner while aino and gary had a heated arguement bout something stupid agn...kenyon rang me asking me to go for a late movie with him at marion(tht guy seriously is bored lor..cause he lives so damm far frm marion and yet wanted to drive me to marion)...

went to archade b4 the movie starts...he wanted to win me a ponny soft toy..(-.-)"...he spend 10 bucks trying to get enuf tickets...till i ask him to stop wasting money...as i'm dead bored watching him play all those games also..

watch night at museum 2...not bad...quite nice... :D ..got back to uni hall late...alethea and those SG saw me with kenyon...hope they dont ask silly questions...cause alethea tend to have a very wild imagination and thinking...(speaking of the devil, kenyon just rang asking if i wanna go city or marion..cause he just fin lecs and could pick me up)...bah...so damm lazy...tired and wat zhen would say "fen mi"...i donno if i got the pinyin right..

kk...i need to finish up my 1104 assign..damm "QI SIN" arrr

i feeeeeel so stress now...got my whole assignment on the wrong track...i have to redo it..y? o...why???? damm fustrated ar...and the assignment is due next friday..i'm a bit nervous as i dont like doing things last minute..and i'm blogging now as i'm having a huge headache..and zhen is not here..he's out meeting christ..

sleepless nites..i think after that tuesday few weeks ago, i have this fear of sleeping without zhen near me...cause i got here on sun and zhen told me he aint gonna be at the hall till tues nite...i was a bit scare of not being able to call him up if i'm gonna have the same sickness agn...cause i had tht last week...but then i sleep peacefully knwing tht if i do wake up, i could call zhen and he will be at my room in just a sec...What am i to do in a few months time?!?...i asked aino tht Question and she asked me to moved to alethea's room next sem...but then i dont want to ler..cause i dont like her room...so small ler...so aino asked me to consider bout it...

it isnt helping tht my nail's so damm long....makes it so hard to type...which i'm gonna cut it off later...i'm currently listening to the songs zhen gave me....its sooo gooood....haha...damm,he seems to know what songs i like...

my handwritting as what janice would put it,is as tiny as an ant...its more tiny than my printed lecture notes...o..gosh, ipod dearest, i love u to bits...LOL...its nice to own one of this babies...as i bring it everywhere i go...tho back in miri, i seldom use it...i think i kinda admire this guy who i heard from alethea is a gay?!....i asked zhen but then zhen says he donno bout tht info....he happens to be frm HK (yes yes, i'll just bite back to what i've said b4 bout not liking HK guys)...but this guy..he's such a sweetheart...always helping me out...like today when he's doing his assignement at the library, he could find the time to greet and meet me as he's so busy till he have not sleep the night b4...tho i dint expect him to...and he was so concerned and asked if i was stress *YES,I AM VERY VERY STRESS* ...he told me if i ever need anything, i could just call him up and he will try to help me......

i met him from the bowling trip few months back when zhen took me to meet his friends...at first, when i saw him...i told him he looks like gary...and zhen immediately gave me the (O.O) look..and then later told me i've insulted him...well...how was i to know tht i wasnt the only one who hates gary besides zhen...

and now to think bout it, zhen's friends are all so nice and helpfull...like sang, tht korean guy...he taught me how to bowl and then sammy was there to clap and support me...while zhen told me i wasnt tht bad..(even tho my score was half of his)...

for the pass few days, my skype webcam was ongoing for 24/7 without even talking to one another..

i never really bother to look at the person on the other side,both of us get on with our everyday doings...so wats the point of leaving the skype on u say?;..well..hmmp...*shrug* i donno...we just do it...for the fun of it i guess...

bored friend, busy me = all the pics taken while i was unaware of iti got me new bedsheets...and was sticking blu tacks on the pics...heaps and heaps of pics..-.-"upon realising, i did this...attempt to cover up half on my face..LOLand this pics was taken this morning..was studying my A and P ..i feel so BROWN,hungry and cold..i made pizza for lunch...woooo...i feel so fat now...

and thn in my recent studies, pregnant woman gains bout 9 to 16 kg...EIK!!..well i would think agn b4 getting preg...

we skyped call for 6 hours...crazy and super silly...

and he dint sleep for the whole night cause he was helping his "friend" in her assignment...say u dont wanna get used...also kena blinded cause u like her...damyum...how could u throw ure assignment to someone else who doesnt take the same course as u? maybe the lack of sleep has got him cranky...as he was tired at 4am..but then have to help her till 8am...i was abit annoyed as he brought tht HK subs back to the table agn...say i dont wanna go lor...cant u understand...why must i like HK as much as u do?...in the end,he said 'i donno wat the heck are u blabbering about' without making any eye contact..obviously he was a bit angry,tht i could understand as i've recently studied bout sleep patterns and i could understand he's mood swings...alethea wanted to leave tht table badly..she hates him to bits...and was kicking my legs so hard i wanted to scream asking her to stop...she patted on my shoulders when she saw him and gave me tht pity look...jeez..is she hating him as much as she hates chin foo??..everytime we had our SG subs on the table...he tot all we wanted is branded cloths...jeez..i know his sweet heart is there waiting for him.(welll sort of..not sure if this info is correct but the sign is there..obviously and plus alethea told me)i donno how to not make him angry these days...at times i'm so fed up with our friendship...do we always have to argue and fight over some tinny winny stuffs...a lit sparks of disagreement...oo...ya...all this pics are taken last monday from kath's bd dinner...chinatown is deserted

a couple of dreams thru out the nite...wats wrong?...all the dreams involves him....

well the last one was kinda funnie lor...my alarm went off at 8.45 am...i accidentally press the off button instead of the snoooze button...so in my dream, i got up and got ready for breakfast...breakkie was damm delicious, i was sitting next to collin and zhen beside him...alethea and those singaporean gals was opposite us...and then the dinning hall was renovated into this very posh style 60's cafe...damm nice.....and tht super hot chef was there to serve me too...and then i donno wat trigger me to wake up...and i find myself in bed agn going like "O,MAN!!!!" i'm late for breakkie agn...:S:S

on my way back from marion..pic taken of the back of uni hall

two more months,just by thinking bout it makes me sick to the core...i know i will miss u badly..even tho i know ure coming back but then when? a year? 2 years? or maybe 3 when i'm not here anymore..and i bet u going there would change u into someone new..i just couldnt accept the fact tht u will be gone by this sem...and i'll have some freaky new dorm mate..maybe its for the best..maybe he/she would treat me better..theres so much tht i'm really gonna miss..

• the fact tht i know u will be there when i need someone to talk to at night
• when i'm sick, at least i knw u are near me
• i feel safe being near u
• i would surely miss those nites where both of us fight over tht packet of MSG,haha...
• the nites where u would go to my room and then we could talk for hrs
• and those signature knocks on my door where i would not mistaken u for anyone else
• ure blur voice early in the mornings..
• ure cute way of saying 'dong dong and nai nai'
• and the fact tht whenever i talk bout u, u would instantly message me(like when i'm typing bout u now, u just messaged me)
• and the way we knock on each other's wall as hard as possible just for fun
• and i donno why but i would miss all those arguements we had(but then in the end u would cheer me up knowing tht i'm upset)
• those very mean jokes we share bout gary..LOL
• and how u keep wanting to get to knw some of my pretty friends (angie and terresa) :D:D
• ure BIG ego
• ure smart mouth
• ure very wide knowledge
• when u always sent me those nice chinese songs
• where we would,especially me go fight over the bathroom..and u always let me win over it
• all the endless MIMIC arrrrrr
• where u *ahem* ""always walk me back to my room"" (it all started the first month upon meeting, he said aino was angry tht he dint walk her back to her room, so i said 'yeah, no duh, u should have it was 2am'...he replied 'yeah..i do walk u to ure room every evening'...me saying 'jeez...cause we both need to get to our room and u stay like next door to me)
• and the fact tht when i just got back to my room, u would ring my extension or sms me 'velcome bak'..with tht silly dracula thinggy on going

ok..i cant think of anymore now...but then recently, everything has changed...i seldom sit next to him no more, cause both of our gangs hates each other...and plus i dont get to talk to him much as he goes to the main campus library ard 9 pm and comes back ard 3 to 5 am in the mornings...i've been missing out on him lately and its really got me a bit upset..not used to it..he used to knock on my door asking me to go with him too..but then i know i wont be going back early..and we prob would be heading to MCD instead...lol...boys = super eaters..and by morning i would see hungry jacks or MDC waste papers in the dustbin..and thts when i knw u went there the night b4..what has been keep us busy my friend? u playing dota? me with phone calls? u used to wake up for breakfast, but then how could 2 weeks of easter break changed our routine? i donno y i dont even bother calling nor do u bother picking up the phone..its like we are both tired of it..MAAAAAAAAAAAAN, like sucks when both friends hates each other...i hate being the middleman of being asked why i hang with the other..well at least you understands..as u would ask me to sit with them if i want..but those others wont understand at all...(keep on asking y do i bother talking to you)

ok,i guess thts all..we are gonna go fight over tht packet of MSG now..hehe...i prob watch him cook like always and then talk to him while he eats...i still rmber the first time we did tht, stuart came out and we tot he was angry as we talked ard 12am in the kitchen..and i slept ard 2am tht day...

today's zhen's BIRTHDAY!! and so is mamma's day..i rang my mum and my aunts...wishing them till i'm breathless..calls after calls...and if my phone's got feeling..i bet she will be very damm angry by the calls i made and get today....zhen told me i'm a phone addict...cheh...like as if he isnt....he was..but not now...

zhen's bd is on a very unique day...so i got him something unique too...er...rite...he could just hugged it to sleep tonite and name is baby Zee...haha..he still doesnt know wat i got him yet..cause when i arrived,i was talking to lanny..and zhen was on his way to the main campus to fin up his 5000 words assign..poor thing...so..i'm just gonna hang it at his door..as i cant wait for him..need me beauty sleep...

i spend more than i expected today..feel happy ler..i met yanyin on my way to marion...i told her i'm gonna window shop....mana tahu....come back with 3 bags of goodies...and bumped into her while we were on our way back from marion...yanyin was like 'what the?!? i tot u said u aint spending!!'...er..hahaha...

even zhen gave me the -.-" sign...cause he asked me how could i be broke within 3 hrs at marion...well...i got me some pants,shoes, bags and chocolates...:):):):P

o...i got me,myself another new perfume...so intotal i have bout 5 of em at my house at port adelaide and then 2 here at uni hall...and a couple more back at miri...hehe...lots of love...

GARY's babies..those freaking annoying little crow wont shuddap early in the morning...i tot it was my alarm going off...i keep on pressing the snoooooooze button for no reasons at all...i was half-sleeping at 7am in the morning...a bit blurr...slept quite late...Zzzz...was doing my RRL but end up chitchatting....haha...later going marion to shop a lit...i'm stressed out...need some shopping to easy tht pain my head's been giving me...urg...aino and gary's going marion as well..but then i dont wanna be shining upon them like christmas lights...i bet i could cook an egg on top of gary's head just to test his anger...LOL...such a jealous racoon..cause he doenst have friends doenst mean aino cant have em too rite?????

when i'm bored, when i'm lonely, when i'm sad....i always look back at the pics we took..and it helps comfort me a lot..OR i could ring zhen and talk to him..but recently, he's been busy with his 5000 words assignment...

i woke up upon hearing jack's voice as he was talking to zhen...then i went down for breakkie...i was early..well besides jack and zhen...i need to wake up early to move my new electric heater to the closet to hide it as i wasnt suppose to have it in my room..and theres room inspection today..-.-"...i was playing Need For Speed when this cute ang moh knocked on my door..he was to inspect my room..he just had a brief glanced and saw tht i was playing NFS, he told me he loves playing it too..haha...

i've decided to not go mel with zhen...he rang when i smsed him that..and i found some juicy stuffs bout..*ahem*...haha...but then an eye for an eye..our mimic is getting really random now-a-days...then he sorta bought out something which i kinda hate...dint really commented on wat he was talking bout...he stopped when he realise i was upset...i donno should i be angry / upset or fustrated as tht topic is eirking the heck out of me...its like an itch tht wont go away whenever we conversate...he just have to bring it out....

and while talking to him, i realise my chinese is getting really suckkie these days...as he asked me to conversate in chinese with him...i couldnt even fin a sentence as i'm cracking up brain getting the words out rite...

i realise tht theres 2 months to go...just two months and he wont be staying here at uni hall no more...he mention it to tht SG guy...during theatre night...theatre nite wasnt tht bad....i'll try to steal pics from facebook to upload here..:):)

pa pap paptay!!! haha...

Pizza lunch last saturday,BBQ lunches last monday, early morning International tea today which i've missed cause was butt lazy to go,Singaporean get-together dinner last sunday but i went home(i joined the singaporean club..hehe),Theatre dinner tomolo night which requires us to dress up in lit black dress or anything tht tickles ure fancy,next monday would be Accedermic dinner where we would have to dress formally and sit with ppl from your course but thn i aint joining cause its kath's birthday so we would all go chinatown, but zhen asked me to not join them and join him for dinner instead cause its sang's birthday (sang's the korean guy i met when zhen took me bowling)...but then if i dont go kath's party, i bet she wont forgive me..haha..

and its zhen's birthday this sunday..and mother's day too...

gary was to perform tomolo...but due to his injured ankle..*HURRAY!!!* (which till today he is still pissed off at)...so he couldnt perform for his beloved aino dearest...haha...

April was teasing gary to the max...till gary shows his (wat zhen would say is the killer prevert look) very annnoyed face tht says "i'm gonna kill u if u speak of me agn"...but bravo *TONS OF CLAPS* to april,she's brave, unlike alethea keep on saying tht gary's gonna kill her,i dont get wats she afraid of ?? gary's just an idoitic guy with a prevert face tht goes EMO mood without any reasons......now i may sound mean..but zhen has opened my eyes to see clearly tht gary's such an ass...seriously gay i would say....if gary ever hurts me,he's gonna taste some friendship marks..and plus i got backups,zhen and my bro says tht if gary ever touch me, they are gonna break his hands...and he'll be handicapped and crippled...

i'm addicted to the songs zhen gave me...its good...i love it so much...even tho i can hardly understand it..cause its chinese...

i was on my way to sturt building yesterday for my 5 to 7 pm class and i was late..and while on my way, Mao hugged me..*AWWW* then i while walking passed aino's unit, i saw him from far,and he smiled at me as i waved back and it really brighterns up my day..oo..and btw,english mens here are very friendly...they greet and smile alot at u when u pass by..and they would ask bout ure day...*well i dont even know them nor speak to them b4* but nice ppl makes uni hall a great place to be staying at

tht zhen ar...i rang him 4 times today...he couldnt even get out of bed...till i fin class and went back late as i talking to gillian,n he just got up when i reached my room at 4pm..and i met Another April,a phillipino who is such a sweet heart...:):)